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Signs of the emerging storm season.


At ang tatay kong kalbo.

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Serious thoughts regarding my anemia.

One: I’m afraid they’ll insist on doing a colonoscopy even though I have no GI symptoms or signs of bleeding, just because undiscovered GI bleeding is a common cause of iron-deficiency anemia. I have an extreme aversion to having diarrhea, so I’m terrified of the prep. So terrified, in fact, that I’ll probably refuse to do it unless perhaps there is any reason besides having iron-deficiency anemia to suspect that something might need attention there.

Two: I’ve had a cluster of swollen lymph nodes between my neck and my right shoulder for maybe two years or so. I asked my doctor about it, had several types of scans done on the lump, and it was determined that it was probably benign (although there was at least one more test, don’t remember what, that could have been done on it but I decided not to bother with - don’t know if that might have revealed anything or not). For the past month or so, I’ve had a feeling like something is stuck in my throat but nothing actually is, on the right side, and it only just occurred to me that it might be that lump of swollen lymph nodes pressing against my throat a bit. That and the fact that lymphoma is another possible cause of iron-deficiency anemia have made me think that perhaps that cluster of swollen lymph nodes isn’t so benign anymore. If that’s the case, I’ll probably have to undergo chemotherapy/radiation therapy, and the lymphoma wouldn’t even have the mercy to kill me at any point (unless perhaps I refused treatment for long enough, but then it would still be considered entirely preventable).

Have you done the stool test to check for blood? It's a lot easier and less invasive than a colonoscopy, with no prep , and it's likely better than not checking for GI bleeding at all.

I hope your lymph nodes are OK. Please take care of yourself and get another opinion, or a recheck.

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In the hour of the unexpected: the next great work
They also brought a commitment to meet the goal of the seminar—the theme or message of the next panentheistic “great work” worthy to serve as the defining worldview for the 21st century.
The XX, gathered from around the world—from Europe, Tibet, and India, as well as from the United States, the host country, the youngest culture as well as the most powerful and influential. It was unanimously understood, though unspoken, that because of its dominant position world, and because it is the battleground between an anachronistic Christian theism and a strident scientistic atheism, America is desperately in need of the panentheistic worldview these nine were striving to establish.
[lists and reasons of lists of the wellknown nwo-hero's]
Because eight of the nine are deceased the Dalai Lama, the one who was still breathing earthly air, was well used to communicating with the so-called dead, spoke on their behalve. [what could go wrong]
All agreed that dichotomous thinking has drained life, intelligence, and meaning from the cosmos

(imo) speaking with the death is normal, but thinking is a form of killing?

although its more than a decade old, there's some changes made to the facade,
there's no christians in it but some quotes used for appeasement

Eventually, all realized that their divine voice, identified by names such as Sophia or Gaia, or perhaps Gaiasophia, Earthwisdom divinely considered. Slowly, Gaiasophia revealed Herself as core of the next great panentheistic vision. The unexpected hour witnessed themanifestation of Earthwisdom, of the transformation of dichotomies—matter/spirit,external/internal, divine/human, divine/earthly, human/earthly—into creative polarities, thehuman-divine, the Earth-divine, the silent-word, the Logos-Sophia Gaiasophia silence. AnotherGoethean ideal, polarity, had emerged as a key to a sustainable future

(imo) google and fairness is not un attached to this, why would google hate s**t and f**k but not rape and murder?


the next 1000 year reich restart ?The Real Thousand-Year Reich. After a long period of historical neglect, the Holy (german) Roman Empire has finally found a modern chronicler to bring it back to life for contemporary readers.
ofcourse the new is the same old again
we don't get fooled again
who??

I want to know why people bully select others for not having the same point-of-view.

Fed up of the political treadmill:
Get up-politics-get dressed-politics-have breakfast-politics-have medicine-politics-have lunch-politics

Yawn...

Drinking coffee past midnight.



No updates yet from my current employer.
It is still unknown when will they reopen.


There's my mom who have ideas on making business.
I've strongly emphasized that I cannot serve and sell stuff at front. The words and the speed demands would just twist a lot of things wrongly.

Even if I have ideas of my own, but that also comes along with my personal accommodations.
Again, I don't want to impose my family of this in any way or form. I just don't want to even if they would.

I cannot accept it yet.
I cannot accept that my family can and would afford such lengths to catch me whenever I could've fall.

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