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Haha.

Aba, aba, pate.
An' lakas mo din magalala.
Katakot agad-agad, 'alang bang oras magisip o magpahinga??

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Actually reckon the silence except when I made a joke was 'yeah mate we get it, we live the same lives as you'. So an acceptance.

My anti-theist stepdad told me today that he wishes I went to [school name retracted for privacy reasons!]

Cos the school I DID go to was full of lads my age who absolutely hated anyone of Irish descent and I'm part Irish & they spoke down to me & treated me as less than. Going to school with other kids like me would've meant it didn't happen within the school gates.

It's passed on from their dads who get it from their lodge.

They also get other far right bs crammed into them.

One of the lads whose dad was orange experienced homophobia from his family after he came out.

That's why I'm glad I didn't go to [school name retracted] and went to [other school retracted] instead because yes we had Section 28 but it was all secular teaching, not Catholic homophobia and transphobia which is stronger.

Plus kids from [school name retracted] got treated bad when people saw them in their uniforms.

Today, my taste buds changed.

And somewhat got a bit sensitive with caffeine intake.


Oh my... What am I turning into today?

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Hmm... instead of writing a traditional novel, I wonder if I could make a YouTube channel where I just tell the story verbally. It's not as though my writing is terrible, it's just that speaking is easier.

What to say to my mom about my job without pissing her off!

Training will begin this Saturday at 1 PM!

Nothing!

^^ maybe tell her after you come back from training. If you can get out of the house without a fuss.

Just had a nice Skype session with my therapist and now thinking about whether or not I want to run errands and go grocery shopping.

Now expecting that my body is once again managing to precisely mimic the symptoms of something serious without anything actually being wrong. I really, really hate when it does that. Puts me through a bunch of unneeded medical testing and stuff, plus makes me look like a hypochondriac / attention-seeker who just glanced at Dr. Google and is now convinced they’re dying (though in actuality, I do lots and lots of research before jumping to any conclusions, and actually this time Dr. Google told me that I had something that isn’t so serious after all). Hate it, hate it, hate it. Now I have to try to act like everything’s normal, because I may not intentionally fake anything, but my body is very, very good at it. It’s probably just all in my head somehow, with the lumps being something entirely benign and the rest just being my body/mind playing some cruel joke on me.

Um, in other words, the biopsy I had last week revealed absolutely nothing.

I really want to do something like yank weeds in the garden or vigorously scrub the bathtub to work out my frustration, but I don’t have the energy even to stand around doing nothing for five minutes... but I should actually be perfectly capable of doing whatever I want to if I push myself, because my brain/body is probably just making all this up.

Wondering when the first ever house was built and why and when the first of our ancestors created language.... googled... no answers.

A few theories are that the monkeys found a psychoactive or psychedelic mushroom and eventually evolved their own consciousness. There must have been some sort of turning point... entering the consciousness of a monkey eating a psychoactive mushroom, it must have been a bizarre experience... I image they looked at each other in great curiosity as they evolved in consciousness, so eventually built shelter in fear so they never had to see each other again, and then developed flash backs, happened to the hippies in America eventually... or the first house was built to hide ourselves from the sunshine.... Aztecs and Mayans where famous for taking natures drugs and the Mayans created time itself... recently on news a monkey in a zoo learnt how to take a selfie and then scientists discovered quantum time (development of time within time and the reverse of time in space within time... something like that.)

Guess I'll never know the answer to this question.

ᜂᜊᜓᜐ᜔ ᜈ ᜀᜅ᜔ ᜃᜉᜒ᜶ .. Ran out of coffee.
ᜀᜆ᜔ ᜊᜃ ᜋᜌ᜔ ᜊᜄ᜔ᜌᜓ᜶ And there might be a storm.

ᜉᜓᜇᜓᜐ᜔ ᜇᜒᜎᜆ ᜅ ᜀᜅ᜔ ᜈᜆᜅᜉ᜔ ᜈᜋᜒᜈ᜔, ᜏᜎ ᜅ ᜎᜅ᜔ ᜀᜃᜓᜅ᜔ ᜋᜃᜁᜈ᜔᜶ We received canned goods, but nothing I could eat.

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I better be able to do census myself next time cos so much about me mum refuses to accept. Otherwise she'll be filling it in for a totally different person to how I see myself.

Oh, and because today wasn’t filled enough with bad (to me) news, my dad has been possibly exposed to COVID-19 by a coworker. He thinks he’s probably okay, but we’re still enforcing a sort of quarantine now.

Oh, and if my dad’s coworker tests positive, I don’t get to have my PET scan on Saturday because of secondary potential exposure.

Grrrrrr Aspurrrgers!
I hate being misunderstood by society.
I know it is my fault that I do not fit into society.
The curse of being unique/weird/different.