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After breakfast, 33 minutes, tried and failed bowel movement (the most recent time I failed a morning bowel movement was 2019)

After lunch, tried and failed a 24 minute bowel movement

It's OK - I know.
I'm just saying you aren't alone.
I never had any interest in that.
I already had kids at the age when my friends were going.

*friends = colleagues

Hail to the enema!

Don't torture yourself Joe...
That is my job...

I know, I just didn't want others to go thinking that. It's just how I feel about myself. I often beat myself up about it. It's like I don't want to go clubbing but then I feel guilty because I'm not going clubbing. It's a weird combination.

I think I have avoided clubs and bars all my life because I don't like drunk people. I seem afraid of most drunk people (except my dad, whenever I've seen him very drunk he just walks very slowly and slurs his words, but otherwise still seems himself). But most drunk people are unpredictable and seem to get all their social skills all muddled up, like they've gone demented for a while, and for me it feels an uncanny valley thing. And I never understood why getting like that is so appealing to NTs who don't need to enhance their people skills.

Lots of people go clubbing without getting drunk.
Drinks are too blooming expensive these days.
Sounds like hell to me either way, though.

* Oh wait, I went clubbing in Palm Springs with my female cousins, my mum and my aunties.
Now THAT was an experience.
They were all pissed drunk.
They were all doing those grinding dances with strange men - even my aunties who were in their 60s.
My aunt and cousin f'ed off to some guy's room and we couldn't find them.
Weirdest bloody night of my life.

I stood there like a lump of clay.



These were the songs I remember:

Then a drunk skunk might cause you to be apoplectic.

I have personally noted that being stoned on caffeine has similarities to being drunk, in some ways.

As with alcohol, caffeine heightens the entire emotional spectrum, hence the increased frustration that can inspire anger.
It affects our reasoning capability.
It decreases our emotional discipline.
It, in large part, circumnavigates our "superego" and gives licence to the ID to gain greater influence.

But on the "flip" side, it can also inspire creativity and is known as: "The drug of the graphic designer".
How True that is.

Glory to creativity.

Car stuff. Car stuff made me unhappy today. I have to pay for the tow on top of any repairs. I think it's my engine again. I might just leave the dead car in my garage for another four months. I hate adulting because I'm not good at so much of it. Meh. What is today? Thursday? I really should get the tow tomorrow. I don't want to. I hate making calls and coordinating stuff. Maybe Monday.

Coca Cola...

Histamine poisoning tonight...<sad face>

Anxiety

Lots to do.

I had a really bad nightmare earlier and couldn't go back to sleep.

Anxiety and sensory issues again.

How some people will believe bollocks in terms of what causes, Autism & Aspergers

Very true. So much misinformation.

I read that they're going to censor Roahld Dahl's most famous children's stories by removing insults such as "fat" and "stupid" from the books.

Apparently "they" think if their kids say such words from reading the books they're going to immediately burn in hell for all eternity. And yet people say the F word all the time and get away with it. Go ffffff-igure.