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Edna you seem to have some experience with people with special needs or maybe some kind of education about it... anyway your insights are more than needed for people like me!

always thought it was pretty crazy that you still have to raise your hand to use the bathroom in high school, and then two weeks later everyone acts like it’s normal to ask these children to responsibly take out tens of thousands of dollars in student loans.

Well, it looks like my brother may have "stealth" appendicitis. He's been having pain in the stomach area for almost two weeks and spiked a fever yesterday, so he went to urgent care today, and that's what they determined. They were surprised he isn't in utter agony and is even sometimes up to eating a bit, and were going to send him to the ER to get imaging done right away, but he said they decided that if this had been going on for two weeks already, it probably wasn't going to get any worse in the next few days and could wait until he could make an appointment for the scan/surgery.

I got nothing going on in my life. Absolutely nothing.

Yet when I have small tasks I'm too lazy to do them and I spend most of my day just sleeping and taking naps in between scrolling through apps and watching a few YouTube videos.
In the beginning of the lockdown I tried to challenge myself to do at least one productive thing per day but at this point I can't even get my ideas from my head to the paper.

I have tried looking for jobs but without responses. College doesn't start until next month and even then it's gonna be mostly online. I'm considering traveling to Berlin just to have something going on but at the same time it's still too risky.

I know I'm overreacting, but lately I have been questioning whether I'll ever be able to function in society again. Of course I will, but at this point the lockdown is starting to affect me mentally.

My conscience is clear on matters and ai know I haven't done any of those things but the trick is, not to let a sense of righteousness and indignation at being treated that way by others take over. It's like quicksand for the spirit.

I just saw a British tv show, in which a woman repeatedly beat up another woman for implying that (one of those things). And she was shown as being perfectly justified in doing so

Imagine being so 'scarred' that you still feel 'triggered' by harmless comedy shows.
The solution is the breathing technique through it to change the physiological reaction.
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I've improved but it hasn't disappeared altogether.

... Considered buying a pair of contact lenses right before back to work.

In hopes of making me less inclined to be distracted -- I generally take my glasses off when I use the phone or work close up overall.

Never tried it before.
Looking for something breathable and cheap. Of course it'll be disposable.
At worst it's mostly just a trial thing that it may not last a week.

At best...
Possibly solving the other side of my sensory issue -- how I'm sensing 'weight' of everything I wear. My usual glasses are heavy...

But addressing the photosensitivity issue may require me to buy a new pair colored shades, mostly whenever I go out or when my head demands it.
A cheap plastic and definitely something lightweight on my head will do.
... Not through another pair of contacts though. I'd be going too ahead of myself to think of it.

Also my annoying habit of rubbing my eyes no thanks to years of chronic nose irritation.

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Lose more time here - Updates at least once a week.

I've got to leave soon to go do some more painting over to my daughter's new place. We got little man's space room done, her bedroom walls are done and I got the first round of the vine things painted. She wanted these decorative vines on her bedroom wall, but the stencil was a piece of crap so I tossed the thing and have been hand painting them for her. I got the first coat of round one done last time. I only have three hours today over there, so I can get the second coat on the first round easy. I'm not sure how many vines I can get done today on the second round though. We only have three hours there this morning, so I dunno. Ideally I'll get the first coat of the second round done, but who knows.

My friends wife's parents wrote on Facebook that my "friend" coronavirus positive

And I only have a couple of "friends"

He's 61 and I am 37

The only time I see him is when I happen to see him at the grocery store

Ugh whatever

"Life" goes on and on and on and on until it stops

Overpowered outsmarted outnumbered intimidated dissociation distraught distressed despondent misunderstood vilified constipated diuretic repressed withdrawn worried inefficient unheard invisible negligible inadequate worthless powerless overruled senile aging hateful depressed suppressed alone inarticulate fat heavy ugly stupid awkward autistic uptight edgy unemployable dysfunctional delusional

Dichotomous thinking

Logical fallacy

Igloo

Dead end "life"

Minimum wage jobs

Made redundant

"A Confederacy of dunces"

Culture shock

Assumptions implications subconscious

Not enough energy or resources to sit around talking and winning competition against lil dips**ts

Long term effects of not showering

Too many of not enough significant digits

Vivid imagination

Naked and ashamed

Vulnerable fragile

Injured wounded

Quiet therapy

Sensitive hearing

Contrabass

Entertainment

Gave up on "life" a longfuck time ago

Semantics and pragmatics

Slippery slope

Logical fallacy

Grudge

Some bozos too enthusiastic and interested about s**t. It's like adrenal fatigue

Ripped sagging jeans

Take off bra and underpants and stand naked and gagged in front of a crowd

They overpowered you because they outnumbered you

They have their lil cronies

"In" group

We seem to have acquired yet another loud neighbor next door . I'm so sick of living in an apartment!! ! Working from home under these conditions is very unpleasant.

I think I love magic, actually. Just because I only did the Goth fashions and stuff for about a year as a teenager I thought I didn't/couldn't. But I love watching Sabrina on TV (the modern one) and I liked the magic folly we went to yesterday.

Maybe have magic/darkness as my theme for my next prompt book?

Trying so hard to not fall asleep right now so I can get myself on an at least semi-normal sleep schedule before classes start and not have myself taking naps at random times.

OK I'm watching 10 programs gonna drop any boring ones now