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It's ironic how strangers on multiple sites online think I'm a burden on my parents.

My parents don't.

Mum would lie, of course. When I couldn't draw, mum lied and said I could. When I make her upset, mum lies and says she's ok. White lies.

My stepdad is worse at white lies than I am and he would absolutely tell the truth. He wouldn't even be polite in it.

In his opinion, I'm not a burden but most of my pictures are rubbish and it's not fair that I'm allowed to put down the f word in scrabble just cos 'everyone around the table knows it so it doesn't matter if it's in the dictionary'.

My stepdad always tells his version of the truth and hang the consequences.

Didn't realized I slept for over 12 hours.

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הייתי שוטף את הכלים כעת אם היה לי יותר משעה אחד לעשות דברים כזה. הכיור הוא תמיד מלא כיום

מצאתי שיערה בתפוז שלי.

Someone, somewhere is burning something outside and it smells really good. Im trying to figure out what it is and I have no idea.

There are some a**holes I meet online who I wish were close enough for me to give them a big kick in the face.

Modifying a complex 3D figure of a machine in PowerPoint with shapes. There's nothing it can't do. Somehow

i met this girl 9 years ago.


i haven't been the same since.

I pray that it's just a coincidence.

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There's some very interesting discussions here.

Stop shooting people...like seriously cops and civilians apparently....like just stop f*****g murdering people on the streets. Its not that hard, its what a lot of the protests are about...like about time for cops to go back to serving the community than just trying to get people riled up....and stop sweeping the homeless people in denver, they don't reallly have a place they can go outside of there. How about try to find a way to help them than just trying to use heavy boots to kick them out.

I am dissapointed in my state governor and the mayor of denver, almost seemed the ole governor Polis was actually going to do something about covid, he was going to analyise results and make descicions based on that. And it was all wear a mask to protect fellow coloradans, then he just disappeared while buisness seemingly just goes on as usual. And now all the sudden they are sending all the kids back to school with an active pandemic going on...that's just f*****g stupid. LIke where the f**k did you go Jared Polis, what are you even doing....I thought you were going to address this pandemic. But now where are you?, I havven't heard a word from you in regards to the pandemic in months. What kind of state govorner just abandones the post like that....like come on Jared Polis, you can do better why aren't you? LIke I had some faith he'd do the right thing but I guess that was too much to hope.

Yesterday felt like discord except when I was on discord I was being deliberately bad and provocative to wind up the snobby Hun bastards/brats on the site who wanted to live up the whole 'Rangers fans are cool cos we say edgy stuff' meme.

Come to the conclusion a certain kind of person will always hate me.

I am in a rare position where I can live off inheritance. My stepdad considers me the one of his kids who's the least likely to squander it, while not being in a professional job that pays better than his does. One of my stepsisters would spend it all on drugs the way she did when her granddad died. Another one is NT but wastes more money on her interests than I do - she would just buy loads of horses again.

I'm also in a rare position where the strictest routines I've ever had imposed, have been imposed by myself. I find the whole 'break time' and people slacking off really hard to deal with in the workplace/educational environment. Even now I'm easing up on myself, if I'm working on my art or something, I make sure I focus.

When I did milwordy I was a workaholic to the writing. Which is probably the only way you can actually write a million words in a year.

Losing track of time again.

And being carried away.

Oh my.

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Deserve a lazy day today.

Just feel tired.

Had autistic inertia last night so couldn't sleep til late.

Now doing everything late.

Normally I wake up at 9 and have had lunch by now.

Weirdly this still always happens at weekends vs weekdays. It's imbedded in my psyche.

Suddenly, I cannot sleep again.

.. So my mom asked for a coffee. But I told her I want to go to sleep. Yet I can't.
.. So my mom intended to go to bed. But I made coffee for her.
Now we both can't sleep.


My mind's alright. But my gut is being violent for some reason, as soon as I woke up.

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I've realized that if there is one word to best describe me, it is "between." Somehow I seem to always end up falling between categories, not really one or the other.