Depends on my mood. Sometimes it's motivational, giving me hope that if I keep trying I can make it further. Other times I get jealous. These days though it doesn't phase me too much, aside from occasional strong feelings of loneliness.
If you're on the autism spectrum, would you take a cure to get rid of it? Or, if you're not on the spectrum, would you voluntarily give yourself an autism spectrum condition if you could?
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It is easy to go down into Hell;
Night and day, the gates of dark Death stand wide;
But to climb back again, to retrace one's steps to the upper air –
There's the rub, the task.
– Virgil, The Aeneid (Book VI)