MrSinister wrote:
I'm agnostic. I think there is a possibility of a supernatural deity, just not a probability.
Really, though, at this point in my life I just don't like to think about it, since thinking about it in too much depth (as my mind tends to do with complex philosophical, spiritual and ethical issues, even if I don't want it to) inevitably does nothing but trouble me.
I understand where you are coming from. Before I got saved, I was not very religious. I got asked to play keyboards in a southern gospel quartet. I accepted. We travelled around on a big converted bus. It was pretty cool. We had a living room up front with television, a sleeping area (bunks), a bathroom, and a kitchen with dining area. It was quite comfortable and neat. But something was missing. I began getting a bit troubled myself as I kept hearing preachers preach the gospel. For me, this was what is called conviction. I was under conviction. One evening we were performing at a small country church in Kentucky. Before we began playing, I kept feeling this kind of tug for me to go to the altar, but I didn't go. Then, we began playing. In the middle of a song, I leapt from my keyboards and went to the altar---I moved very fast---I couldn't stand it any longer---I had to go---I wanted to go. And there, I met the Lord. Well...that is how it happened with me.
Your post reminded me of that since I can relate to the troubled thing. Everyone is entitled to opinions, and I can say I am happy that you acknowledge the possibility of the existence of a deity. But religion is a personal thing---and you will do what you need to do.
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