PE class came mandatory with Health class during my 9th and 10th grade years (every other day was PE). I was 6'1" when I was in 9th grade. Because of my height and slender build, and by the fact that my father had been an all-star athlete at that school, I was originally expected by the school to be an athlete too. Thankfully, my parents never put pressure on me to pursue athletics.
Most of our PE classes was my dreaded sport of basketball---I was absolutely lousy at it. I couldn't even make lay-ups right. I had to stop first before jumping up to try to make a basket---which often times didn't go in.
This was co-ed PE. And our teacher always divided our teams up in "Shirts" and "Skins." The first day of PE where this happened I was trying to figure out what this meant. Two teacher selected captains began taking turns picking us for their teams. I was one of the last to be selected (as almost usual). Mr. X looked at us and pointed to the other team and said, "You are the shirts." That team went out onto the court and began dribbling the basketball. Mr. X looked at the team I was on and said, "You are the skins." I felt a swarm of butterflies in my stomach when I learned what that meant---the guys started taking off their shirts. I didn't feel comfortable doing that. I was very skinny and I was self-conscious---partly because of one side of my sternum that stuck out noticeably more than the other side. I stood frozen. Mr. X yelled at me, and I took my shirt off.
Every time we played basketball (and it was most PE days) I was on the "Skins." I couldn't figure it out. It made me mad. I got to where I would throw my white PE shirt at the wall and yell, "Skins again of course!" When Mr. X did allow us to play something else, it was often wrestling.
Then, near the end of the period, it was off to the mandatory shower room with the multi-headed shower pole. We all had to stand around it with no privacy. And Mr. X would watch us from the entrance of the shower room. I began to wonder about if he got pleasure out of this.
I often went to the golf course to play 9 holes on weekends. One time as I was on the first hole by myself, I saw Mr. X on the second green. He was looking at me. And as I teed off of the second hole, he remained on the second green instead of going on to the third hole's tee off. All I could do was play onto the green. Mr. X said, "Play along with me." So I had a very awkward round of golf with him. Though I have blocked out his conversations with me, I remember there were some strange things he said to me. I just can't remember what they were, but I can remember feeling a bit bothered by it.
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