I'm leaving WP forever

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I did that once, but I didn't make a separate thread for it. I don't think it's so important that it deserves its own thread, considering that I am only a number here to most. I did actually want to leave and I should have left because my life is too eventful now to even have time to be on this forum. Instead, after a brief leave, I did come back. I don't post here as often as I used to, though.

I don't know what brought me back. It's a habit for me to go on here, more than anything. I also have several friends who go on here and frequently mention this forum in face-to-face conversations.

It's hard to stay away. Really hard.

I have thought about leaving here too several times but it's too addicting. I remember I did leave here for about two weeks because I was having problems here with my account and it was stressing me out and I couldn't have stress. I remember wanting to take a long break from here too but it was too hard to leave my friends here or acquaintances and I enjoyed reading their posts. But within a week I wanted to be posting again.

I remember I wasn't here for about a week when I had my baby.

I remember another summer in 2008 that I wasn't posting much, because my first laptop kept on shutting itself off after an hour. There were just some days that I'd give up and work on some crafts for the rest of the day. After I got my mini laptop, I started posting again and I couldn't stop. When I found out how expensive of a hobby crafts are, I've started posting non stop. I really do need a job that has more hours. 4 hours a week is not enough. If I worked 4 hours a day, 4 days a week than I'd be doing something else instead of padding away. The only problem is that the new Job Placement Specialist is clueless and she wants everybody to work full time.

I only made post about leaving forums & communities on two separate occasions. The 1st was like 8 years ago. My parents were really on my back then because I was spending most of my time online instead of working. I had been putting in job apps at most every place I could think of around here & never even got a call about an interview sense I had no work expedience. I didn't know what else I could be doing to get a job but my parents made it very clear that they believed I was not working because I was spending my time on computer instead. I got really frustrated & kinda depressed & I decided to leave the net & I made post about how I was leaving on all the communities I belonged to. I cant remember what I said exactly but I think I said something about leaving because I needed to avoid the net so I could work on my life. I didn't leave the last forum thou which was Comedy Central's one because I notice I had a reply when I was ready to log out for good from a girl I had chatted with a bit there who had some weird similarities as me & she seemed concerned so I replied to her reply & we kept chatting there. We coupled up after a while but that's a topic that belongs on L&D. Anyways I didn't leave Comedy Central's forums(till they took em down like a year latter) but I never went back to the other communities I had used then.

The 2nd instance of me making a post about leaving was about 3/4 years ago on a community called 4th Kingdom. I had been there sense it had started & a lot had changed sense then. A lot of newbs came in & lots of older members I liked had disappeared. The community became kind of clickish & I don't get along well with clicks. I had gotten very depressed sense I had joined there a few years before & I was suffering from a psychotic depression. I very angry & frustrated about things in my life & with my lack of luck with relationships. I kept posting about my issues & a lot of members thought I was being argumentative with em because debating with em helped me sort & process & analyze things with myself. I also made a lot of controversial post that made little sense when I was upset or something & lots of members started thinking of me as being a narcissistic troll & some really believed I was potentially dangerous offline. Anyways some of the members started petitioning to have me banned so I got p!ssed-off enough to leave & I made a post about it & I blamed the community in the post. I never went back. I occasionally get an email from them that my account is ready to be deleted for inactivity & I've thought a little about going back so I can maybe apologize to the community for my behavior back then but I think it's best for all of us if I never go there again. I don't want to stir up any past issues: I"m a different person now & that SN I used then for everything hasn't been used sense. It's better if I let that part of my past stay dead.

I left other communities too but I never made post about it: I just deleted my accounts & never went back.