Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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12:30-2am tried and failed to sleep.

ate in the middle of the night. six servings Semolina bread and 2 servings soy milk. 2am

bus passed my stop, even though another passenger and I both waved.

almost urinated in pants on the bus.

@ Nob Hill, 34 minutes tried and failed to defecate

kind of felt like getting sick, hot temperature

almost got hit by a car (as usual)

realized i lost my credit card @ food maxx

the cashier @ food maxx from yesterday told me they did not have my credit card in the lost and found, but i find it hard to believe b/c my credit card had zero unauthorized transactions. if someone found my credit card, i think they would've made a purchase on it. i think my credit card was in the lost and found, but the cashier from yesterday was trying to punish me because "you raised your voice" and "you don't have to get mad". but he asked if a can of beans was mine and i said "no". it came out louder than i intended, and the ret*d ass hole had the nerve to self righteously tell me off. and i apologized and assumed that i was wrong (even though i do not know if i raised my voice. maybe i raised my voice from 3 to 5 decibels. nobody measured the number of decibels). anyways, especially since i also work in the service industry, there is no way that i would have the nerve to *correct* a customer about something like that. i think "pick your battles" is a good statement, but some idiots pick ALL the battles.
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head cashier made me load five bags of shingles. so heavy i almost dropped them.

one of the day laborers had the nerve to laugh @ me and scream "Chinese!". (rolls eyes). plenty of the day laborers kept screaming "Chino!" @ me. f**k those racist ass holes! they are not even supposed to be soliciting and loitering on home depot property, but they do, and there are plenty of them, and they do it, every day, all f*****g day long.

two ass holes had the nerve to laugh @ me when i almost got hit by a car

I planned to go home to bring the last few things to my new apartment. While I was there I thought it might be nice if my family could have dinner and a game night one more time before I went back to school. It was a nice idea. Miraculously everyone was actually able and willing to come. My dad (who usually has to stay late at work) got off at a fairly reasonable time. The weather outside was perfect as my mom, aunt and I sat waiting for my dad. The food arrived and we discovered they had messed up my order. My mom has been having a hard time lately with the terrible rental car we have right now, so I offered to drive back there to pick up the correct food, but no one under 21 is allowed to drive the rental car, so my mom had to go. While she was there my dad texted us that he would in fact have to work very late and he couldn't be present. My mom came back angry at the car as usual. My aunt has been feeling down lately and I hoped playing a game would cheer her up, but it really didn't and she left early. So now my mom and I needed to load my stuff in the car, drive it 30 minutes, and haul it into the building in the dark. Except we couldn't because first we needed to pick up my dad from work, but we kept texting him and he wasn't responding so we didn't know when that would be. Finally he showed up at the door having walked home because he assumed we had already taken the car to the apartment, when we had only stayed because we thought we needed to pick him up. At this point we'd planned to only bring some of the stuff and let the rest wait until tomorrow when my dad could bring it, but he's not going to be careful enough with it and he doesn't have time to drive down there and back twice so I can transport it. So all the stuff has to come tonight. We loaded it into the car, which makes absolutely no sense and is terrible and has already made my mom cry multiple times, and not surprisingly we went through the same stupidity again. Finally we get on the road but there's an enormous traffic jam and we're stuck for 20 minutes next to a car blasting loud thumping noises making the whole world vibrate that I guess are supposed to be music. When we park we have to carry the bins across a busy street and then go in a side door, only to discover the elevator isn't working and we have to go around the corner and in a different door to use a different elevator. That elevator is absolutely packed with people who all know each other except for us and they're being loud and they stopped at another floor, which my mom thought was my floor and started getting off and didn't hear me when I shouted that it was the wrong floor. And now I'm here and the place is a complete mess and I don't have the energy to do anything about it.

Sorry that turned into a huge rant. Basically I had a utterly disastrous day.

Anxiety

I was walking around the outside vendors at the flea market and I was sweating like a pig when I got back to my table. I couldn't understand why I was sweating so profusely. I've heard from some customers and vendors alike that today is the hottest day of the year.

Im mad at my sister

Anxiety

I’m still sick, but I’m getting better. I wonder if it’s just a regular cold or covid, I hope it not covid.

Crippling depression, nearly out of meds, would have to go to the doc to give my card for new receipt, but it's too hot to move. Hardly able to do anything much, because I feel exhausted by every move I make... Well, the usual...

Anxiety

Angina

I had to buy a new ID and I went to the wrong class

I'm at a public library right now and a young boy who annoys the hell out of so many patrons
just took a seat next to me at a spot where some computers are.

He has quiet a "potty mouth", is cocky and sometimes pokes fun at a few patrons who are homeless.