txfz1 wrote:
Shortfatbalduglyman, are you okay? I’m reading a lot of stress in your post.
Are you a runner and have a marathon base? I have an ex that was a marathoner, she was amazing. She used half marathons for getting prepped for a full marathon, with no training for six months.
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Granted I am under a lot of stress, but I have been in much situations before.
Emotional overeating
My company is reorganizing and I am afraid it might "reorganize" my worthless corpse right out the door. I am a Lot Attendant at a hardware store. Every day I am afraid of getting run over by a car or raped. The slave plantation is in the middle of a homeless encampment. Too many day laborers and homeless loiter around all day long. For minimum wage, any customer or employee could order me to do anything they want.
But it is just a part time job
My sister said she wants to sell the house I live in. Then I might have to get two jobs. I can barely handle one part time job. I could never handle two.
Too emotionally fragile
Sometimes sleep badly
38 too old to have children
Old man and old woman dropped dead a long time ago.
Nobody will ever want to date my worthless corpse
Autism, gender identity disorder, depression, anxiety
42 counselors, no significant change, good or bad
Prozac, Zoloft, effexor, Ativan, propranolol, Wellbutrin. Too many side effects
Academically dismissed from all schools
Made redundant from all the jobs
Evicted
Precious lil "friends" had the nerve to dump my worthless corpse
Getting fatter and stupider every day
Off leash dogs
Exhausted all the time
Cravings gone haywire
Annoying coworkers and customers
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In 2010, marathon. Have not done any races since then. Kind of want a half marathon or 10k. But coronavirus. Races $$$$. Have to take the race day off work and at least one more day.
But I feel like I have to save more cash especially since I could get reorganized out the door at any second without notice
Already wasting about 600 bucks a month on grub
Too lazy to cook
Good thing I have zero children and dependents
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When my old man and old woman were 38, they had 3 and 7 year old children. They had high school diplomas only. Must have been struggling financially.
I feel guilty and ashamed I am not earning more cash