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I know Darth Vader was a Militarist. But was he a capitalist also?
I know Princess Leia was monarchist. But what kind?
Have watched no star wars past phantom menace....
Watched the orioginal trilogy a few times....not really into the Lucasworld lore.

I have a hobby as a Let's Player, but sometimes that hobby turns into or at least feels like work when it shouldn't. I blame the stress from the amount of obstacles I have to go through just to get a video recorded. When it's easy, I can breeze through the gameplay, the recording, compressing, uploading, and processing and get maybe 1 to 5 videos done in a day. When it's not, I'm dealing with updates, or maintenance telemetry crap that can use up a lot of computer activity leaving little to no room to run a game and a recording software at the same time without getting an encoding overload message. OR the update breaks something and I gotta go back to a previous version or state and never update again. I haven't updated my computer in over a year and now I have to refuse OBS updates otherwise I'll never be able to record audio again. I can't even get my graphics driver updated anymore. Sometimes this computer hates me or maybe Microsoft hates me because I'm the last of about a few people left still using Windows 8.1. If and when I get through it all, I'm lucky enough to have enough enthusiasm left to make just one video.

Then there's schedule problems. There are so many times I've had to go overtime because a Let's Play project went on longer than I anticipated. I've resorted to multitasking two or three different Let's Plays at once to keep progress going forward. There are games I have planned for a certain month or time of year. Sometimes I worry about burnout. I still gotta practice games I have yet to put on my channel. I have a huge backlog of games I haven't played yet because I've fallen behind on my schedule.

I look at my channel now and see I am approaching 1900 videos and yet my subscriber count stagnates and viewership towards recent videos is nonexistent for months. I feel like I'm trapped in obscurity on YouTube.

Round 9, Elkhart Lake

^^Lucky!

shortfatbalduglyman, thanks for the reply. The endorphins from the training will help with the weight. Win-win in my opinion. Some people seem to get addicted to them, tho. I’ve quit most of my NT family but I’m not dependent on a trust fund.


I would say Salvador Dali’s Lincoln in Dalivision would be a good representation of surrealistic impressionism.

Needing a workout at my school's gym.

My mother saw a news story about a woman who was face blind.
Apparently she had never heard of face blindness before.

I told her that I'm face blind and she was totally stupefied.

"You never told me that! Do you recognise me? Your partner? The kids? How can you live like that?!"

She thought it meant that faces literally vanish or smudge into nothingness so that you can't see them.

I had to say that I see faces, but they don't register or mean anything to me.
I can't remember the face of 98% of people I've ever met.
I have to memorise people's hair or their walk or their voice unless it's someone I know very, very well.
Even then I stare at pictures to "know" their face.
I don't make eye contact or look at faces, but even if I stare at someone on TV I won't remember their face.

It made me realise that face blindness on its own is a disability, even without ASD / ADHD or any other condition.

I didn't even try to explain the fact that I have Aphantasia (the inability to picture anything, including faces).
That would have totally blown her mind.


She said that the lady in the news story had an operation to stop her face blindness?

Is that even a thing?

Interesting ^. Were you always aware of this limitation? In my case I really didn't have a clue until my ASD assessment when I was diagnosed with Prosopagnosia. It's one of those things where I assumed I was normal, or that's what it was like for everyone -- kind of like me having synaesthesia which I didn't realise until it was explained in a Uni lecture.

When we had this conversation about face blindness, Trudeau came on the news and she asked me if I recognised him. I said yes, of course. He's a very familiar person for obvious reasons. But then I was thinking, if you subbed his face onto another body with different hair and in a different context, I likely wouldn't recognise him at all.

I googled whether there's an operation to cure face blindness.

This is the only treatment I found:

https://healthcareglobal.com/technology ... discovered


Is it just me, or does the article make no sense? What exactly is the treatment?

I already have lots of coloured lenses. They don't help at all.

I wear tinted lenses myself.

Not for face processing, but for light sensitivity. So I'd choose shades of browns and greys.

But sure.
Coincidentally, tints of brown does sort of 'flattens' the details a bit instead of overwhelming multiple pieces for me.

Didn't worked that way when I was wearing a reddish tint.
Now my issue is to do with recalling fast enough to recall at all...



Had one of those strange dreams again.
Always post apocalyptic, always chasing or hiding from something or someone.

Settings and characters change.
But the plot and atmosphere doesn't.

Sometimes I'm that person who's chasing something. Sometimes I'm that person who's being chased.
And sometimes I'm a spectator and seeing who's chasing who and who's being chased.

But this time it's this weird tittle of 'a man tries to defeat an immortal enemy' or something like that.

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I used to be relatively face blind as a kid. I sort of was aware of it because of people always being bewildered at the fact I didn't recognize someone, or thought that they were someone else. I also relied a lot on remembering the hairstyles and voices of people (people getting haircuts was a nightmare because it was hard to recognize them ).

I'm not that face blind now though. It's weird and I have no idea what happened that made me better at recognizing the faces of people.

I'm watching Gentleman Jack and I have absolutely NO CLUE who anyone is, or what their names are, apart from the main two women (conveniently, they're both named Anne).

There are three characters in particular I had to google because I can't tell them apart at all.

Tell me these women are triplets?

Feeling a bit anxious about going to the dentist today. The job hunt has been going slow, though I did get some job offers and responses. No luck yet, but I did get offered to be in their talent pools, so that's a start and I expanded my network a bit.

I'm going through the "The not feeling good enough" phase again, knowing I am more than good enough and that there's no one I have to compare to but the feeling just sits there in my system. I could talk to people about it, but they'll just give me the forced "You are good enough" response even though I know they're genuinely trying to cheer me up. Or maybe some deep breaths exercise.

I feel like I'm hyper conscious or something because I am super (self) aware of all my problems and how I could solve them. The problem is that the voices in my head are always from other people (sometimes strangers I barely interacted with) and I turn stubborn. I just can't seem to filter out these thoughts out of my head. I'm too busy in my head all the time so meditation (apps) would also be difficult.

I need therapy.

On the bright side, I'll be seeing my family today and go to the movies which I'm looking forward to because it's been a while since I have seen them and the company is nice.

Failed experiment attempt.

Try again next month.

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