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Technically yesterday, but getting a massage. I didn't like the way he touched me several times and the massage seemed haphazard.

I want to do literally nothing, feeling detached. I guess it's because of quick temperature rise

Extra shaky today

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Slept too much. Same as every day

I thought I'd actually be able to order a freaking hot dog meal at NYC fries alone and without any problems but the lady wouldn't stop confusing me and saying the same things over and over and I lost it and had a meltdown that reminded me have The Tism.

It took me until dawn to fall asleep last night, as usual, and I was still feeling out of it but my mother and I had plans to go out and I managed to do well even though the stores were crowded and busy due to the Easter holidays starting tomorrow. If my mother had just got me some take out herself like we normally do, then things might have turned out fine. But no, I had the delusion that I could order something at the food court at a place I've only been to twice and it was only because I was tired of burgers, pizza, Chinese food and my mom invited down on Saturday for an early Easter roast chicken meal so I didn't have chicken. But no, instead I grow more and more frustrated by how the cashier was making ordering a freaking hot dog sound like the most complicated thing in the world, which reminded me how horribly overcomplicated the world itself has become, and I lost it. So I went home without ordering anything for supper and my mom wanted to stay and talk with me but I just needed to be alone.

That's what I get for going out and trying to do something a normal human would do. I guess when the concentration camps for ND people are built by Trumpler I'll be forced to be the first one in line because of today.

I wish I never had to go outside ever again, not even to buy groceries or whatever, just have it all delivered to me. Offline shopping will be obsolete soon, anyway.

Also I can't get the door to my apartment open again after I came home. There must be something wrong with the locks. So now I can't get out even if I wanted to.

I kept making mistakes on one of the songs I'm planning to perform on Saturday. The songs for tonight went well enough, but the clock is ticking.

Anxiety

Dealing with the Disability services bureaucracy.

I soooooooooooooooo hate living in the group home, I am soooooooo miserable, I have a roomate agian. It is very dangerous for me living her cuz of my physical & mental health. I wish someone can help me move out, I have the money, but I need help moving. I wish I have a boyfriend, he could help me move out.

Mother

Unbearable neighbours above playing darts and being very noisy. I think I'll be moving soon. I've been offered a bedsit by the council.

I hope the bedsit will be better for you

I lived in bedsits for 10 years. There are much worse things!

I've lived in a couple too and actually really liked it

Being autistic. I'm over it. I hate it. I don't want to be autistic anymore. I hate myself for it.

I had a mental breakdown earlier today. My mom and my NT sister had a great time watching me.