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Dillogic
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01 Apr 2022, 8:01 am

Thinking about it, I don't really get much happiness in life. I think I've been getting distraction mixed up with happiness. I can feel it when I see that kindness from others, the bright things of life, but for the majority of life I see darkness. Life and/or disorder for too long, I guess. Nothing out of the ordinary though, as I've seen plenty of people who've been in a similar mess. I just hide it outside of these words. Maybe no one has really asked me before. :| Are you ok? Mostly. Are you happy? Occasionally.

I'm such a joy. :)



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01 Apr 2022, 11:29 am

Dillogic wrote:
Thinking about it, I don't really get much happiness in life. I think I've been getting distraction mixed up with happiness.


I am sometimes satisfied, sometimes amused, sometimes grateful. Rarely happy.



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01 Apr 2022, 12:53 pm

Hoping to live my life without my overbearing mom's intrusion.



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01 Apr 2022, 1:45 pm

Getting another birthday present for my mom. Her birthday is next Friday.


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01 Apr 2022, 7:15 pm

Dillogic wrote:
Thinking about it, I don't really get much happiness in life. I think I've been getting distraction mixed up with happiness. I can feel it when I see that kindness from others, the bright things of life, but for the majority of life I see darkness. Life and/or disorder for too long, I guess. Nothing out of the ordinary though, as I've seen plenty of people who've been in a similar mess. I just hide it outside of these words. Maybe no one has really asked me before. :| Are you ok? Mostly. Are you happy? Occasionally.

I'm such a joy. :)


Happiness comes when you aren't looking for it. For me, it shows up at unexpected times.

Although happiness doesn't happen to order, some things like contentment, satisfaction, pleasure, gratitude, and so on are still positive things in life.

Maybe you meant all those things too are rare in your life.

People here, I think, understand the darkness. It is safe to express it here.

I have spent years and years pondering these topics. It wasn't until I released myself enough to experience myself. The people pleasing, which I now know as masking, made my inner life miserable even if outside I looked okay. I really had to cut myself off from almost everyone. It took years to find myself under all those masks.

So, are you okay?


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01 Apr 2022, 8:02 pm

How much better life seems it might be were I an autistic middle-class American rather than an autistic under-class Brit.

Disclaimer: These perceptions are my own and may not be accurate or shared.

Perhaps my affect would be greatly improved were I to focus on opportunities (or rather lack of opportunities!) for autistics outside of those I perceive to exist in middle-class America!!

All the best to everyone here at Wrong Planet from Jim from Jimberry and the Couscous (small Youtuber). HaVe A gReAt dAy!


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02 Apr 2022, 2:44 am

can't find how much the austrian empire overlapped with <the obvious>
The Austrian Empire (German: Kaiserthum Oesterreich, modern spelling Kaisertum Österreich) was a Central-Eastern European multinational great power from 1804 to 1867, created by proclamation out of the realms of the Habsburgs.
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maybe likely a bit in the west
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some said pfizer, oh so called american?Charles Pfizer, né Karl Pfizer le 22 mars 1824 à Ludwigsbourg (Royaume de Wurtemberg) et mort le 19 octobre 1906 à Newport (Rhode Island), est un chimiste allemand qui a immigré aux États-Unis en 1848 ; il a fondé, avec son cousin confiseur Charles Erhart, la société Charles Pfizer & Co connue aujourd'hui sous le nom de Pfizer. < the other a candy-maker :jester:
a chemist and a candymaker, hoho what a surprise

"reality" tends to be weirder than fiction
and no surprise the lead role of distraction(this week) has doings with pfizer too



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02 Apr 2022, 3:00 am

Sending Will Smith to Ukraine to fight for its people.



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02 Apr 2022, 6:58 am

So I'm going on a trip at the end of the month, and I was supposed to just try on a few dresses and make sure they still fit so I could wear them during the vacation, but I ended up trying on lots of other clothes too and checking what goes well with what, and before I knew it over hour and half had passed... oops. The thing that makes this really weird is that I hate taking off and putting on clothes due to sensory issues and such.



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02 Apr 2022, 7:02 am

Had accidentally ate moldy bread.

Eh.

Not my first. Likely still not my last.


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02 Apr 2022, 1:55 pm

https://community.autism.org.uk/f/adult ... 681#228681

..and..

Happy Autism Advancement Day! :heart:

Best wishes from Jim from Jimberry and the Couscous (small Youtuber)


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02 Apr 2022, 5:11 pm

I am tired from always criticizing myself. I am tired from always feeling guilty. I am tired from always being scared. I am tired from self hatred



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02 Apr 2022, 7:44 pm

Thank you for the Autism Advancement day notification :D


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02 Apr 2022, 10:05 pm

AprilR wrote:
I am tired from always criticizing myself. I am tired from always feeling guilty. I am tired from always being scared. I am tired from self hatred


Balancing neurotransmitters is a tricky business. I think you just need somebody around you, that cares about you , or atleast can take your mind off things...that would surely lift your mood. Right?.. not that relying on external validation to regulate your emotions, self image, is a healthy thing. But... it works...kinda... :shrug:


What's on my mind....nothing really....I'm like a zen master....I'm drawing a blank.....or just tired...... Something Zen I heard yesterday...." Does the sun say to itself , I am sun. Or the tree say to itself, I am tree....." That is all. No more Zen quotes.


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02 Apr 2022, 10:26 pm

CoolHandLuke wrote:
AprilR wrote:
I am tired from always criticizing myself. I am tired from always feeling guilty. I am tired from always being scared. I am tired from self hatred


Balancing neurotransmitters is a tricky business. I think you just need somebody around you, that cares about you , or atleast can take your mind off things...that would surely lift your mood. Right?.. not that relying on external validation to regulate your emotions, self image, is a healthy thing. But... it works...kinda... :shrug:



My best friend of 15 years is ghosting me so yes, i do feel very helpless and alone. I wish there were more people around me. Then i wouldn't blame myself so much and would be able to think more objectively.



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02 Apr 2022, 11:55 pm

When I awake from unexpectedly falling asleep, my chest is tight and I'm breathing shallow or not at all. I haven't figured out if I pass out from not breathing, or if I stop breathing when I pass out. Been happening for years.