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29 Oct 2017, 12:52 am

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29 Oct 2017, 12:57 am

Raleigh wrote:

Did you make your cat a Halloween costume?

I never made one for her, no. She would've hated wearing a costume. If I were going to actually do anything for Halloween, my dog would probably get a costume because he'll put up with it. He often wears a vest anyway because he's a service dog. I'm so not trying to make him a costume that goes with mine, though - it would have to be something like this.

He's a standard poodle. That would be very challenging.

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29 Oct 2017, 1:01 am

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they will probably make me kill myself. I can almost guarantee that unfortunately.

I can do it in slow motion!

But no, I probably shouldn't say this but I struggle with the idea of cutting the vein above my foot and just slowly bleeding out for days with no one noticing lulz

But I probably won't cause I am piece of s**t don't worry.

I've thought about just lying down in the bathtub (for ease of cleanup) and just cutting everywhere I can see veins through my skin (which is a lot of places, I'm pale and skinny) until I lose consciousness or don't have the strength to do it anymore. That's how I'd kill myself - it wouldn't be so bad, I love seeing myself bleed.

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29 Oct 2017, 1:08 am

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Dragnet wrote:

they will probably make me kill myself. I can almost guarantee that unfortunately.

Well lets not do that,

But yeah when I overdosed on seroquel there was a point I was very sure I was going to die and I felt if I closed my eyes it would be it.

And losing consciousness before right before death would be okay with me!

Its a rather peaceful feeling to close your eyes and not have the strength to re-open them. I could go that way and not be too bad off.

But the pain is what bothers me. Gunshot would be pain even if for a second, cutting is hard for me to do cause of pain, seroquel was absolute horrible pain which prompted me to call 911 (which with my luck turned out to be they!).

So yeah, no good solution.

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29 Oct 2017, 1:10 am

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I personally don't mind the pain. I cut myself (non-fatally, obviously) on a fairly regular basis, so I'm kind of used to it.

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29 Oct 2017, 1:19 am

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29 Oct 2017, 1:20 am

dragonsanddemons wrote:

Dragnet wrote:

I personally don't mind the pain. I cut myself (non-fatally, obviously) on a fairly regular basis, so I'm kind of used to it.

I would be dead if I had that trait.

Also my brain was misfiring so unfortunately if I had died, the last thing I would have saw would have been "they".

Which is some dark s**t, when I closed my eyes on several thousand mg of seroquel, my brain was seeing the last image I saw. Which was kind a of cool cause I could open them and my brain would update in a split second where "they" were in relation to me. But I finally couldn't open my eyes anymore and was praying for death cause of the pain and then I was out.

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29 Oct 2017, 1:51 am

Raleigh wrote:

too bad i sold my bike.

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29 Oct 2017, 3:28 pm

Hello, everyone.

Boos is teaching me so much: how to love again, to relax and not take things so seriously, to play and laugh more...

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29 Oct 2017, 4:42 pm

I think the whole world could stand to absorb more cat wisdom.

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29 Oct 2017, 6:00 pm

I feel like Trevor Reznik from The Machinist,

Who judges and says we can't feel the consequences of our actions.

Because we can't handle them?

or because maybe we never saw them?

or because failure to see right and wrong actually applies?

I must say if I was God, I would save nothing and would feel no pain in doing so.

Noah should have been killed with the rest of humanity. God screwed the pooch and now we're on the verge of War World 3, seriously God wtf?

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29 Oct 2017, 6:01 pm

Why is it so hard to explain that the phrase 'there are lots of things in life that are uncomfortable' does not entirely apply to the fact that fluorescent lights literally hurt my eyes?

Also, is it alright that I genuinely don't care about community [edit:] volunteering [at this time]?

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29 Oct 2017, 6:22 pm

I'd say most kinds of work in some way fit in that category. Most work one can do eventually benefits others.

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29 Oct 2017, 6:52 pm

dragonsanddemons wrote:

Dragnet wrote:

they will probably make me kill myself. I can almost guarantee that unfortunately.

How about you pick up a new hobby with knives instead of cutting. Like carving pumpkins, or cutting apples and oranges, cutting paper too. You can also use a knife to cut open a box or cut rope.

I think people need to start thinking of knives as tools. Knives can also be helpful for heart surgery.

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29 Oct 2017, 7:24 pm

ZachGoodwin wrote:

It's more the blood I like. I actually don't use knives at all, technically I scratch myself instead of cutting (using pins usually, or pieces of broken glass sometimes), but I do it until I see enough blood. Seeing myself bleed just creates a sensation that's hard to describe, but I love it, and I've never gotten it from anything else. It really helps me feel better.

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