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assignments... so many...*shudders in horror*

I was happy the moment that I walked out of my high school forever.

A few things:
-How to get my mom to back off some and quit getting so worried about what she would think of how I live my life.
-A creepy feeling of 'the person I was, is dead.' and feeling a bit pissed off because I know it's the damn PTSD again trying to make me not give a crap about anything or whatever.
-why the hell did that song on my last.fm that I was enjoying stop?
-and now I want a cigarette.

How to properly be in 2 places at once so, I don't have someone trying to think I can split myself into 2 seperate entities..

Got a Church, Softball game tuseday.

I'll be playing baseball again this summer.

I'm thinking that I should really go to bed now.

Sleep? Guitar? Draw? Sleep? Guitar? Draw? Sleep? Guitar? Draw? Sleep? Guitar? Draw? Sleep? Guitar? Draw? Sleep? Guitar? Draw? Sleep? Guitar? Draw? Sleep? Guitar? Draw? Sleep? Guitar? Draw? Sleep? Guitar? Draw? Sleep? Guitar? Draw? Sleep? Guitar? Draw? Sleep? Guitar? Draw? Sleep? Guitar? Draw? Sleep? Guitar? Draw?

7 things

-Need to blog about the last DCT Cars on the network, Of which I rode in for ~3 hours yesterday!
-Need to work on another site of mine
-Really should eat something
-Meanwhile... On YouTube
-Need a second half, That I can take with me on these day trips. (Girl, Preferably...)
-How is TGP Faring? Havent been on there in 48 hours - and I am the own... Oh, Nothing.
-Bills to pay

i have CENTRELINK huzzah!! !! !! ! YEAH BABY!! !! !

I'm thinking of how to remove the Sith from the local library...

Why do you want to know? Oh, and I forgot to take my pills, I think, and my DH has called me 5 times today and it's only lunch. Why is he bugging me to take off early? My back hurts from sitting at this dang desk and my eyes hurt from staring at the computer. And I really think these stupid beans taste gross but it's better than nothing and I'm too old to say gross in that context and I don't think my email is working because I haven't gotten any all day can I stop now?

I've been suspicious of many people since I was working at the factory in the 90s. I've especially been suspicious of typical women.

I have been approached by a small independent media outlet who want to interview me, I assume it is in relation to my work.

It's supposed to be on Friday night, but I don't really know how this is going to go down. I'm not good with cameras and stuff. Or speaking. I have no idea what I am supposed to say to what they are going to ask me. Hopefully it will be pretty generalized stuff.

The only plus is the place they have chosen to do it is somewhere I am familiar with.

Eek. >.<

^^ good luck with your interview thing.

lebanon is on my mind. it one of those days where i feel kinda home sick for it. i really want to go and eat there because the food is brilliant and i dont just mean the lebanese food- they make the best hamburgers you will ever eat full stop. lebanon is a place where even the weeds taste good.
and i want to get in touch with all the activist stuff going on there. like i've been following a few groups for years now and a few have come to my attention recently and it pains me to see them do stuff and not be there. i know the names of people involved, the places they work and their life stories in some cases. people from my organisation have had contact with a couple of them and i want to go and meet them and see what they are like and help out while im there. i want to meet bassem chit, ghassan makarem, nadine mouawad, george azzi and i want to go to zico house where helem(queer rights organisation) and i think the socialist group and anti-racism movement work out of and i want to see nasawiya's feminist space and maybe meet the peeps at meem if they will let me(its a private queer womens/transmens group- except for nadine, i only know their usernames). one day i will go and i will meet my comrades in lebanon and ask them about the IST in lebanon and ask the others about politics in lebanon and give meem the books i was not able to give them 2.5 years ago. i want to go check out the graffiti too- there are a couple of pieces i want to see in real life instead of on the net. sigh i miss libnan.

I wish I could drive. Why is my depth perception so bad?! !