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I want to do something nice for my aunts birthday, though I know that whatever I do she's probably going to just immediately find things to complain about it and it won't be up to her specifications. Maybe I shouldn't.

Dinner.

I walk around like I'm fine
But deep down
I have a sock that's slipping off inside my shoe.

^ oh i hate that. so uncomfortable.

i am thinking about my upcoming therapy. its been some time since ive been in therapy but my
new therapist wants to see me every week. whats most on my mind in relation is how i will be traveling there.
i dont go places by myself generally and my roomate will be working. i will be using public transit for the first time.

its rather intimidating

Public transport is a common issue for autistic folk. The concentration of people in one place, the noises, the lights etc.

It can be overwhelming.

I lost a girlfriend of 6 months and gained a new non binary one the same day

Food.

I really need to pay my water bill. It’s a month late and likely around $500 but I haven’t even opened it yet. There’s no reason for my delay except laziness and maybe some PDA.

I miss having fandom friends sometimes

I wish my employer would cut me some slack! I have a buttload of bills to pay and at this point, there seems to be something new added every week, while my paycheck seems to become significantly lower each month. Can't legally disclose what I do at work, but I've been working very hard and doing 90% of all the work in my department which is visibly shown, yet my supervisor only seems to be able to criticize me; The internet of my apartment malfunctioned; You're not doing anything! I come to the office just so I can get work done as the home office doesn't work without the internet; Not allowed! I am briefly checking something random on the internet as I'm awaiting a response; Don't do that!

I've been working hard for pennies and I barely hear anything about it but god forbid I take a moment to breathe or something!
I'm in a terrible financial situation and the way it looks now I won't be out of debt for another six months at least (not even talking about my enormous student loan debt which I fortunately can pay back in installments but is still gonna take me years)
My social life has gone to the dogs, I can't afford to do anything fun, I have terrible writer's block, and can't pursue any creative endeavors. Literally, the only thing right now I have is that job and I constantly have to balance between working hard and not looking like I'm slacking off all the time because no one at this job or ever will care about me putting any effort in here. Just a stupid office job, as thankful as I am that they hired me when no one else did, this just makes me very miserable.

Meanwhile, the job market here still sucks and I either get immediate rejections within a business day from people who didn't bother to read my CV (one of the employer's ATS scanner straight up glitched and accidentally sent me an email) or I have to wait more than four months to get a response.

Wish I wasn't in this life chapter right now and want to move on as soon as possible!

^ I am sorry to hear about your situation.

Hopefully the next chapter of your life will come around quickly.

It was storming tonight. My dog is terrified of storms and I spent a few hours sitting with him, making sure he was okay. Poor dude was shaking. It's funny, I was talking to him, singing to him a bit. I'm a terrible singer but he sooo does not care. He just wanted to feel surrounded or something. He's since passed out on the couch. I think it's safe to say the storm is over now and I need to start thinking about sleep to. It's probably time to eat the melatonin stuff and hope it works. I have to get up in the morning.

Although I'm also a member of a few other forums, but I still feel most comfortable on this forum.

Probably because other forums are littered with NTs everywhere, and they often took my post the wrong way and they will start to see hidden meanings in everything I say and nitpick on everything I say, and it starts to get frustrating.

If not for the fact that I have to interact with NTs irl and I want to practise my social skills, I wouldn't have joined all those forums in the first place.

Speaking of interacting with NTs irl, I think I might have accidentally offended one recently.

I was at my tutoring job and their parent was calling every minute, and they keep asking me how their child is doing.

Well the kid was running about refusing to do the work I assigned him, so I just spoke the truth, and the parent ended up cancelling the entire tutoring assignment.

I suspect maybe he was thinking that I'm criticising his child and he got offended by what I said?

Maybe I should have did the NT thing and just lied and just say that their child is doing okay? Then maybe I wouldn't have lost this job..

The dogs keep bringing acorns into the house.