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I think my housemate may create unnecessary work for herself. I often hear her banging on something in the kitchen, ostensibly doing dishes or preparing a meal, and it will take an inordinate amount of time.

This morning I saw she didn't do dishes last night, so I did them. Theoretically, she had no dishes at all to do this morning. Yet, she's doing dishes. And it's taking forever.

If I go out there and sit down, she'll wrap up what she's doing and move on, but if I leave her alone, she'll be banging pots and pans for another forty minutes. Right now the other housemate is out there, and I've considered the possibility that she's acting busy to appear helpful.

But whatever it is, I want to use the kitchen and it will be evening before I have both access and water, because she'll also monopolize the water the whole day.

As far as I can tell the only thing she's cooked today is boiled eggs, and the whole house smells like she burned a pan.

I wish I knew why she did these things.

Here's something else I don't understand. When my housemates watch TV I can hear it downstairs, in the kitchen or in my room, well enough to follow the dialog. Yet, when I call up the stairs, whether the TV is on or not, they don't hear me.

When they leave a burner on the stove with no pan, it makes a tapping sound that I can hear all the way across the house. Tap...tap tap tap tap...tap tap...tap tap tap tap tap tap... But they can't hear it sitting right next to it.

I wonder if noises bother me so much because I really do hear them louder than everyone else.

I know a co-worker used to get annoyed that she couldn't mention my name in another room, across the office, without attracting my attention. LOL

Right now I’m thinking that after so long, I finally have my diagnosis, but what if I fooled them into thinking I have Aspergers? Maybe they will reevaluate me and reverse the decision? What if that means I can’t get diagnosed again. I always thought my masking was very good, but my diagnosis didn’t take very long. Does that mean I’ve been going through life thinking I was fooling everyone, when in actuality I haven’t?

You didn't fool me. ^

Contending with layers of issues.

Like a queue of inconveniences.
Get rid of one that's been louder than the rest of the entanglement, another will reveal itself more.

After being able to manage that one particularly constantly and disruptive symptom, it reveals what it's been masking among the cacophony of other seemingly 'random' symptoms.

Having... Several issues, interacting and covering up one another, without a means to manage one, meant no discerning patterns nor known triggers to isolate, and no time nor means of self reflection in whatever attempt of self monitoring.


Basically, the shite annoyances that is my body. It's not like I'm dying, something fatal or 'actually disabling' -- but it's very, very inconvenient to a point that it lowers my quality of life so much.

After managing that one particular annoyance throughout my life after finally being able to isolate and figure it's triggers and causes and how to stop that particular symptom, there's another form of annoyance that pops up that I also have to figure it out.

Some aren't as random; which I barely figured while coping with the unmanageable and seemingly inconsistent overlapping s**t.
Others are trickier. Which took me more than a decade to get it.

If I'm not dealing with X, I may be dealing with Y. After getting rid of X and Y, there's Z...
Like a fricking needy and whiny brat.

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I need to do about six loads of laundry but it's freezing cold down there and I don't feel like it.
I have to clean up the pooh by the bathroom.
I have to collect more garbage and stuff to take to charity.

My back hurts.
I'm hungry.

Wah-wah-wah.

Wondering when the weather is going get cooler. Hoping it will be sooner rather than later!

My men.

The moon.

Currently waiting for an at-home COVID test to get done processing, so I can see if I get to stay home the rest of the week or not. God, I hope it's positive. lmao

I really, really wish... That the spoiled brat in my head never existed.

So I never had to deal with this... Whatever this is.

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Danny Devito f*****g killed it as The Penguin.

The women I've known

The vast expanse of time intertwined with crushing loneliness.

Also, this cereal is garbage. I regret buying it. But I will eat it anyway.