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Oh Gawd, not the spicy vs mild thing
Pass the guac and salsa

this website's forum runs off of the exact same system Chicken Smoothie (virtual pet game with a very bustling and prominent forum) does. it's phpBB I believe? you can tell by the way the buttons look, and the user control panel is the EXACT SAME. it has a lot of the same smilies and well and some of the system dialogue is the same (ex. the "return to the index page" message and link after you sign in)

I wanna make my own phpBB-based forum, but I'm too lazy (you have to set up a database or something like that) and I don't know what it would be for.

Evri is the only courier company I know of where your parcel can actually go backwards.

I don't know how it has happened but one minute my parcel was on its way and the next minute it's due for sorting. It's not even got to me yet

The Bureau of Meteorology has confirmed that we are now in an el nino weather event, which will mean hotter and wetter climate

I had a hot and wet day.

Peas, but than that's nothing new.

Just thinking about these past weeks

How depressed I've been over everything happening in my life

Thinking about how I've only focused on this depression and not into what to do to better my situation

Things can get better but you gotta work for it

I am applying to data entry jobs and if they don't call me it's because it's not for me

Trying to accept again, accept that things can get better, accept that even though I'm in a very tough spot there is light

Just gotta climb through this dark clouds

Thinking about being strong...

In which I resent other people's helplessness and unreliability, along with my own.

For so, so long, that I tried to be so independent as possible. Every advice is either useless generic abstract, dismissive, or outright inaccessible.

If only I can just... Leave. Alone. And go no contact. Live my life.
Be free of them. And them of me.


Why being grateful is utterly hard for me?
It's because none of them changed my life for the better.
They can shelter, they can be so lenient. They can only just stand me. Being vulnerable, being helpless, being dependent.

But grant me the real freedom that I really want? Actually listen to me and say where I could get it? No.

Love and willful as they are, but still helpless... Still ignorant. Still do not get it.

Usually, a person would've been so grateful. Happy. Being allowed to be vulnerable, open, helpless. Whatever.

Why am I not?
Was it because I'm too demanding?
Not really. I do not ask much.

I have the means if they don't. It's more like they do not let me, they do not listen. I'm stuck not being alone.
Because "it's all they knew". I hate it. I hate them.

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Tomorrow is the big day.

It should be possible to use different clips of Claire doing her Lulu voice to train an AI to be able to speak in that voice.



That's even better than Homer Simpson.

Being stuck in a particular part of a video game.