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avoidance

the girl I've been flirting with in a will-they-won't-they, they-probably-will lesbian way

i will gladly pay you tuesday for a hamburger today

feeling sick

A need to complete two big assignments for my class, one of which is due Tuesday of next week.

Genuinely wondering when I'm going to lose one of my bottom incisors. It sticks out more than my other teeth and makes more contact with my top teeth, so whenever I get whacked in the jaw or hit right in the mouth by something it gets the brunt of the force. I swear every time that happens it feels like it's gonna break free from my jaw bone, and it happens like multiple times a week because I'm so clumsy (down to regularly accidentally punching myself in the jaw while yanking stuck clothes out of bins).

Saleah said that danisha gave two weeks notice to quit work. She said danishas Dr wants her to have a sitting down job. Danisha is about 35 and I am 40. Makes me paranoid I will get injured in a way that I can't work.

Coworkers are mostly big spenders. They earn minimum wage just like me but some of them have cars, kids, pay rent, smoke.

They don't act worried about $$.

Accomplish something. Complaining feels good sometimes but unless you publish a book about it, nothing productive will come out of it.

Come up with something to look forward to doing. Not just emotional overeating

You can't depend on strangers to give you directions. Print a map next time you go somewhere unfamiliar

Nothing I do is good enough

Fear of being evicted due to clutter and cockroaches, which have given me trouble since I moved into this joint. As usual, I ask for help, and none is forthcoming.

Flew across the country with my mom to visit my 91 year old grandma, now she has covid and we might too (we need to get more test kits tomorrow to be sure, but we seem to have symptoms)

I'm terrified that she's going to die, and that it will be our fault

We're giving away free stuff on our yard. We need the extra room now and don't have the patience to find a buyer. It's just a chair, a few lawn chairs, a bench with a cushion, and some holiday decorations.

I've got no room for any of that stuff sorry

Oh, I have to talk this morning? Yeah, that's not going to work for me.

Covid symptoms aren't too bad so far, the worst was the sinus pressure and dizziness but that's pretty much gone now. Hopefully I don't get any lasting effects

I managed to not catch it until now, sad to break my streak

The bench and the lawn chairs have been taken. Now there's just the one wooden arm chair and the holiday decorations.

A need to finish a big assignment for my class!

My life is going nowhere. It's no surprise and any effort of improving has been unsuccessful.

I made it to Berlin, woohoo! It took me nearly two years.

That's my one positive note. Meanwhile, I'm heavily in financial debt, my job doesn't pay me enough to fix it, getting a better job has been hell as employers are using AI and ATS scanners for applicants and not a single human has read any of the cover letters I put genuine effort in as well as my CV.

And I don't like working in general, I spent the majority of my time here at my job.
The electricity of my apartment is very bad and a lot of appliances in my house broke due to powercuts. I haven't made music in ages because I literally have to walk on eggshells not to damage the apartment any further.

Literally the source of all my current problems is the fact that I can't afford anything and have very expensive bills. I don't have any financial support, don't know where to get these, and generally don't have anyone in Berlin to help me out. I don't exactly come from any sort of generational wealth either.

It's been eating me alive for ages! I would obviously benefit from therapy but this is one of those problems that doesn't get better by talking about how I feel. I feel like all synonyms of suffering right now, it's no secret. The solution is right there, it's just very difficult to reach.