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Thinking of what tomorrow brings..

Nothing really, sort of trying to keep it that way at least for a while.

Parents were supposed to return from their european vacation yesterday. Wondering if the storm on the east coast delayed their flight or what. And it figures that they didn't take their cells.

The election afterglow (or hangover to some of you), and Press Your Luck.

many things but, nothing specific mind you...

I have more of a clarity of mind since I've walked away from my supervisor a week ago, yesterday. I guess the end of the contract was a good thing for me.

making career progress..

Diagnosis.

Suicide, Somehow not needing to talk about how I feel or anything without coming off the wrong way only to piss people off, as well how pathetic I am for not being able to just take the sh*t and get on with it. I mean I am like the person who has already gotten their ticket into the sh*thole but just can't accept it and keeps waiting around the line to try and get maybe a ticket to 'not so sh*tty land' when I should just accept my ticket to sh*tville and move one.

And maybe generally its not good to get irritated/pissed at people and not just say so and then having it come out in akward ways combined with being upset about other things to, only for me to feel bad and like I am hated for having a bit of a complaint about something.

Cant take my meds without my brother and some others seeming to question if I am just abusing it to get high, oh yeah you get real high on bloody klonopin and mirtazapine ooh a sedative that makes me more relaxed/tolerable and a sedative anti-depressant to help sleep and I imagine to try and help the depression. They can make a fair argument if I drink immediately after taking the klonopin which I do sometimes well F*** it if I can't commit suicide doing something less harmful but still potentially harmful reduced urges of actually attempting suicide.

Can't drink even a beer without feeling like I am committing a crime and someone disproves then of course getting convinced of really stupid things people must be thinking or feeling about me and not being able to rationalize my way out of it. And I wish that crazy f*** that lives in side me would shut the f**** up so then I would quit accusing people of being the cause of these feelings when its just a voice in my head(not actually hearable, but thoughts that come in words and it seems to have a personality of its own and I get convinced of things like people hate me if they get pissed at me for something, its just one more reason to end it bla bla bla. I mean most people have anniversaries of starting a relationship or maybe a friendship I might as well start having anniversaries for my first argument with a friend, first time I almost punched my dad in the face and terrible things like that

I apologize in advance to anyone who has the misfortune of reading all that crap.

I'm hoping that Alabama lost their first game, but that probably didn't happen. Oh, well. It'll happen.

My dad's a patronizing drunk.

Thinking about my Monopoly card game!

I'll have to ask my mum not to buy me Doritos anymore. It interferes with my weight loss.

The feds want some oppositions...well whatever, if the feds want to trample state rights so be it.

I said that I was wearing Army Gear just to get a rise out of someone and now I feel foolish for doing that.

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