my most recent dream that i can remember was actually a meltdown dream !
has anyone else ever had a meltdown in a dream?
i have had a ton of them before +they tend to be so bad that i wake up lol n theyre usually after being bullied (much like irl in the past) and i just had this happen
i will describe my dream now
dream:
in my dream i was at school (where a Lot of meltdowns happened as a kid lol and in dreams too tbh) and i said “june was lgbt pride month, july is disability pride month, i can say im definitely proud to be gay and r*tarded “
then the teacher (who my brain modelled after my psychiatrist LOL same accent n similar appearance) really didn’t like that i used that word even tho it was to myself and in a positive context and she started arguing how i shouldn’t say that and one of the reasons she brought up was kind of nonsensical (much like my psychiatrists “reasons” that im “not autistic” even tho i got diagnosed lol) which was “stupid people dont carry around a cat plushie in their backpack” and grabbed it (which made me mad) and i grabbed it back and i said “its actually a predicator [sic] of childlike behaviour which is a common trait thats used to claim autistic people are less intelligent” (or something like that )
then she said something else and i marched out of the classroom and ran away down the halls and my vision was all blurry and i was looking at the ground and bumping into ppl which made me feel worse and the whole time i was walking i was repeating a phrase to myself “why does this person hate the word r*tarded when its only used for oneself” (this sentence had a very specific rhythm that i gave it)
i just kept repeating that until i couldnt control my feelings and i ripped apart the papers i was holding (suddenly i was holding papers? lol ) and fell to the ground and cried and screamed and then i woke up
i love dreams tho esp the concept of lucid dreaming which i have experienced
i used to be obsessed with it and trained myself to do it more
and i kept a dream journal for over a year so im quite good at remembering them which ik not everyone is
Ouch.. thats a rough dream...sorry to hear of it
.....one wonders , where the distinction is between Nightmares and dreams