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14 Mar 2018, 5:42 pm
Temeraire wrote:
Marknis wrote:
Temeraire wrote:
Marknis wrote:
I wish I could reboot my brain. 
You and me both Marknis
My laptop went and did this today on its own - I think it is trying to tell me something.
I can't laugh anymore.
My brain refuses to change so I can't do new things. It doesn't make any new neural connections and the fact I've failed to do new things is proof.
Could there be another explanation of why you don't do new things?
Because the research out there says we are making new neural connections all the time.
I do wonder if there are some connections which are so strong they dominate?
When we become conditioned we can become unconditioned - does this make sense?
Whenever I try new things, I mess up at them. Whenever I try to put new knowledge through reading, my head will ache and it won't retain what I've read. It makes me want to shoot my brains out. I used to visualize doing so back when I was 17 and the depression was kicking in.
14 Mar 2018, 5:47 pm
Marknis wrote:
Temeraire wrote:
Marknis wrote:
Temeraire wrote:
Marknis wrote:
I wish I could reboot my brain.
You and me both Marknis
My laptop went and did this today on its own - I think it is trying to tell me something.
I can't laugh anymore.
My brain refuses to change so I can't do new things. It doesn't make any new neural connections and the fact I've failed to do new things is proof.
Could there be another explanation of why you don't do new things?
Because the research out there says we are making new neural connections all the time.
I do wonder if there are some connections which are so strong they dominate?
When we become conditioned we can become unconditioned - does this make sense?
Whenever I try new things, I mess up at them. Whenever I try to put new knowledge through reading, my head will ache and it won't retain what I've read. It makes me want to shoot my brains out. I used to visualize doing so back when I was 17 and the depression was kicking in.
But we all mess up at new things - this is how we learn.
When I can't read because my head is unable to retain the words I listen to an audio version instead. Youtube, ted talks anything where I can get that same information.
14 Mar 2018, 6:05 pm
14 Mar 2018, 6:23 pm
Kuraudo7777 wrote:
Mum had another crying fit. I just can't leave when that happens. My step-father can't really help since he's the one directly or indirectly setting her off. All I can do is comfort her and then go cry over Boo. Here I am again, trapped in a situation that I've tried desperately to avoid. I keep saying that I'm at my limit, but no matter what happens, I just endure it anyway. Is my whole life to be this?
Just goes to show how far those limits can stretch and your resilience and strength my lovely.
Today won't last forever and nor will this sadness.
You have done well today Kura.
Hugs big wingy ones.
14 Mar 2018, 6:25 pm
14 Mar 2018, 6:25 pm
Kitty hugs back.
Mum told me that she had ptsr [post traumatic stress reaction], and that she keeps having trouble coping with it.
14 Mar 2018, 6:26 pm
14 Mar 2018, 6:46 pm
I don't think anyone wants me to be happy and have my dreams come true. They just want me to pretend I am fine like a robot and fake my emotions.
14 Mar 2018, 6:48 pm
14 Mar 2018, 6:48 pm
Marknis wrote:
I don't think anyone wants me to be happy and have my dreams come true. They just want me to pretend I am fine like a robot and fake my emotions.
i don't know about folks you know in meatspace, but i think lots of us here would like to see you happy.
14 Mar 2018, 6:53 pm
Marknis wrote:
I don't think anyone wants me to be happy and have my dreams come true. They just want me to pretend I am fine like a robot and fake my emotions.
I would love to see you feeling happy and posting funny and sarcastic stuff and then posting helpful comments to people who were in your position
14 Mar 2018, 6:53 pm
Marknis wrote:
I don't think anyone wants me to be happy and have my dreams come true. They just want me to pretend I am fine like a robot and fake my emotions.
I want you to get support, friendship, understanding and reliable guidance.
14 Mar 2018, 6:55 pm
CockneyRebel
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14 Mar 2018, 11:26 pm
I was in a bit of a sour mood, so I've changed my avatar to a pea-like character instead of slapping on the German helmet. Now I feel like a Sweet Pea again. 
CockneyRebel
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14 Mar 2018, 11:34 pm
Marknis wrote:
I don't think anyone wants me to be happy and have my dreams come true. They just want me to pretend I am fine like a robot and fake my emotions.
I want to see you happy once again.
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15 Mar 2018, 2:51 am
