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I don't know... I may have a very different concept of 'normal'...

Many accounts I've read and heard, when they say 'they want to be normal' it would mean they long for safety, companionship, inclusion, acceptance, being a part of something bigger, feeling 'stable' or stability and just being overall relatable in a sense like most humans do as they believed to be...

But not me. I might even not have a real concept of 'normal'.
Only 'usual', like, a concept of assumed predictable statistical tendency or odds.

Not... Whatever most people calls as 'to feel normal' -- lack of loneliness, lack of oddity, lack of exclusion or singling out, lack of 'discrimination' or particular difference that people tend to be insecure about.

If they're exceptional, they want to 'go down there, struggle and join them blissfully'.
If they're the type who gets left out, it's the NT's "flaws" or issues.
If they've been through particular circumstances or in particular situations, it's having similarities and relatability...
And so forth...


I don't know.
It's one of the things I couldn't easily relate.



But sure! Watching drunk people can be entertaining.
They don't make me feel normal though; they just make me see that they're more predictable in a different way.

They can be fun, they can be bothersome; all the same, more data and info for me about them.

Yeah maybe normal was the wrong word. I just feel more comfortable

Only with drunk people who I already know

It's as if they're less inhibited somi feel free to be more me

Drunkenness is a great excuse to skip certain rules and a background context that makes other people get away with or let others do things they don't usually do, say, or even think of.

And yeah.
Getting drunk with other people is an easy group synch. To many, it just removes the anxiety and overthinking.

To me, there's no real internal differences if I actually drink or not (save for the physical effects of consuming alcohol) -- only the social context and implication of what others may think about the act of me (if they knew who I'm, they knew I don't drink and will say no -- otherwise I'm just another apparent lightweight woman) drinking (and their expectations over their idea of any-someone who did drank) itself on top of the settings itself like the occasion, who was with me, what's my relevance to the occasion, what's my relevance to the other people, etc.
And that's not even starting with the conversation itself.


... Yeah.
How does one 'calculate' that much 'data' in a single glance? Manually even more so...

Actually, it's harder to think of those things when drunk -- but if stopping the overthinking and inhibitions helps someone more than all that mental calculation, who am I to protest?

I'm turning 19 today.
My birthday present is listening to my grandfather talk about cryptocurrency.

Happy birthday, utterly absurd!!

I hope you have a great day with your grandfather!
Take lots of pictures!

Happy Birthday.

Many happy returns to you and have a great day

I had a really nice chocolate cake the other day, which looked a bit like that photo.

Yum.

Are people here getting more cakes lately?

I can't stop thinking about cake

I had a slice for a family member's birthday the other day. That's my excuse.

I should say: many happy returns of the cake, when it's someone's birthday

I'm quickly shifting into 3-4am sleep time.

Better not do it the next day again.
Especially not when Summer is soon over here.

No more coping with the sun heat.
In goes the cold, the rain, the stormy season, potential floods, wet clothes, wet footwear, wet umbrellas, and electrical blackouts.

Wear cat ears at your own peril. Not everyone can handle such a sight.

Heyyy happy birthday utterly absurd!! !