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I wish my father had not been a redneck. I probably would've had a better life than what I've had since the beginning.

The funny thing about Pandora's box was that it was most likely a jar.

Adult or child?

If your above 18 and you work then you can do whatever you want with your money. If a loved contacts authorities as a missing person and they find you and your an adult. They can't force you to contact that person (but they will generally tell you its a good idea). So work, save, bail and give your mom a responsible explanation as to where your going.

Or an urn

I am almost 30 but I haven't been allowed to live like an adult. Yes, I can drive but I am still on the outside looking in when it comes to social situations just like how it was when I was a child. My invitation to the social world got lost in the mail.

Um okay, I am running out of things to say but how about this?

Could you attend online classes to get and advantage in higher up job positions to support yourself regardless of social awkwardness? I mean, I see why that is hard to accomplish, I failed and was thrown out of college over some BS and anxiety prevents me from going now. But is there any way you can use logic from autism to get an advantage over the social world?

Marknis you have so much emotion to work through and with a therapist it should speed up the process + be a more thorough job

Then I KNOW you will ‘move mountains ‘ by fulfilling your wish.

You just keep perseverating and that is a normal Autism thing esp since the situation has not been changing. You are always too hard on yourself I know you can come out on the other side

Can I apply this to me too?

Sure - now, do you have a therapist?

They won't give me one, I had one with a case manager and doc but they removed my therapist and my life is too complicated to care. I mean... their CIA and I know no one believes me but there seems to be a tug a war with the mental health system here. Something is not right in this area, some kind of crime is occurring with these local facilities and I am not sure. So short answer no, I have been denied three therapist, one for PTSD, one local and another from my insurance company. Just have faith and nuking it to hell is fine by me. Its gonna crumble though, with or without me, its gonna crumble.

That is terrible

I guess we can work through stuff on our own but it’s so tough. Maybe that means it becomes better integrated , though, when u do the research and work on yourself, on your own. But yeah I definitely need one other sincere person at least to talk to in real life ... hope you have someone like that?

The irony is, when I was driving to my therapist’s office yesterday, there was a car right behind me for the last 15 minutes of the drive and since it was stop and go traffic , I got a really good look at him in my rear view mirror.

He was dark skinned bald and the sun shader thing was putting a shadow on hIs face (couldn’t see that clearly) but he was wearing pink/purple suit (just like my ex lawyer) and a shining metal (grey) wedding ring that I could see as he was holding the steering wheel in a certain way
(It was probably someone else n just a coincidence)

Basically I freaked out n thought omg my ex lawyer is behind me .. then I took an exit n he drove past me I was like ‘I hope he doesn’t turn n see me’ and just do scared

And then my therapy session was about working through that irrational fear of that man N it turned out there was a lot of anger (not at him but he represents the divorce) behind my fear
And I was afraid to experience the anger and so I was just afraid of him specifically

The last therapist I was seeing made everything overwhelming and started the panic and anxiety again so I stopped going and will just deal with it on my own again

One source of crazy,

I can't wrap my head around MKUltra when its everyone...

So yeah once the mushroom cloud dies down, I want a hole with a TV, a PS4, a bible and coffee maker

But nope, they all get no trust from me.

Jan 2015, no memories, sensation of drowning when laying down, 100% confused, did not know my name, called random people on phone and then they picked me up. Didn't go to ER to be medically cleared and instead placed me immediately in a psych ward. Its so obviously MKUltra, its not even funny. I mean that is why I want to nuke it, it takes the same level of faith to be here, then it does to be in a psych ward, as it does in the streets... and I have done it before. So please, nuke this from orbit if anyone is reading this with a soul man. I have done my fair share of crap too but you don't get caught MKUltra-ing it, you just don't. That is not a your fired, that is like, you don't get to live territory. I know they spy on everyone, I know they know who it is, I want to take off and lived on borrowed time to make sure it NEVER happens again.

It’s creepy - yeah I know from my cousin’s experience that it’s real

Yeah I took this forum into a heavy direction - let’s get back into some banter- sorry guys

@Blooie My GF and I just watched your video , she says she thinks this is exactly what I am like ( not knowing that I am angry ) , I am still coming to terms with my alexithymia , it's a weird trait.