Marknis wrote:
I wish I could have my dislike of pain removed so I can finally kill myself.

Wow dude... Just wow...
I know I have been suicidal in this thread but whoa negative.
Why are you so serious?
I admit I had a few dark thoughts early in the day but I don't want to act on them nor even give them a second thought. I have found that immediately stopping doing what you are doing and think differently. Yes Autism sucks, it may even be a huge federal conspiracy on my end or maybe I just ruined my life on drugs. But the point is, suicidal thoughts build, the more negative thoughts you let into your brain, the more your overall mental positively decreases.
there's some truth to that, dragnet. when i first lost my medical license, i thought suicidal thoughts were helping me as a sort of escape. my counselor told me to stop focusing on them. i was happier once i quit.