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I'm officially super privileged as an autistic now.


The weird nothing feeling I felt these past few weeks?
It's a default mode network reset.

A full-blown reset.

Why?? Because, apparently, whatever chronic illness I've been dealing since 5, was very, very tied to it.

Now that it's not there. It's not "active".
There's nothing for me to fight.


I can build a better me.
And I know what I want.

I got better EF without the crap now.

Maybe I can turn myself into an early bird?
Maybe I can give myself a super healthy routine?

Maybe I can finally quit fried stuff?
Which I ought to tell mom because the next paycheck and thus grocery will happen soon.


Ohohohohh~~

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It's a good job we're not all alike innit

I'm starting to think that the entire theory of college is based on the assumption that people are sleeping 2 hours each night. I can't do that and that's why I don't have enough time for anything. I wonder if I could call this discrimination.

I vaguely know my sister’s boss’s kid, who’s also autistic, queer, and around the same age as me. 1/3 of the times i go out, i cross paths with them.

Our interaction today when we spotted eachother at the park:

Me: You again
Them: You’re stalking me /j
Me: no, you’re the stalker /j
Them: noooooo

And then we continued on our separate ways

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This goober.

I want to clean up the giant crap of a mess of my whole life that is my "sick-me's" mess.

All of them preferably.


Sick-me only thinks of daily living. And only herself. Only present. Irrelevant past, and nonexistent future.
Appropriately, like someone living with chronic illness and because she is.
Sick-me is involuntarily more selfish and just as involuntarily self obsessed.

Now-me is more responsible.
Now-me isn't too busy fighting any chronic illness, so there's no stupid mentally unwanted thought enabling body.
Now-me can choose to be selfish or not.
Now-me can finally just choose to focus less of herself and more of everything else.

Sick-me has no accountability. Has nothing to own responsibility over.
Sick-me has an inability to be responsible regardless of incentive.

Now-me has a choice. Now-me can choose to be responsible or not. It's all on me, 100%.

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I've spent a lot of time in bed resting so my sprained knee would heal.

I think I've managed to awaken my own spirit by listening to bagpipes. My heritage is British, mostly Scottish, some English and some German. I wonder if my spirit is Scottish.

I love the pipes I do

I'm glad I don't take part in a lot of social media

I wonder how long it will be until we start getting taxed on fresh air

I don't think some show companies make shoes for actual feet

I'm getting excited for cake me

Oho what kind of cake

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I'm thinking that I'll get a big tray of cupcakes