I feel...extremely depressed and sad, but I have no idea why. It hurts so much that I keep wanting to break or hurt myself. I had a peculiar dream a couple nights ago, about Gollum from The Lord of the Rings. I was trying to convince him to be nice, but it really didn't work, and he looked the way I look when I'm hurting inside but my face is like this
or this
. He then took hold of his arms and then his legs, trying to break himself the way I keep wanting to. I remember feeling quite disturbed, especially when I tried to stop him. I succeeded, but then he looked at me with this uncomprehending, almost uncanny smile, as if he couldn't understand why hurting himself was wrong. .
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Quote:
A memory is something that has to be consciously recalled, right? That's why sometimes it can be mistaken and a different thing. But it's different from a memory locked deep within your heart. Words aren't the only way to tell someone how you feel.” Tifa Lockheart, Final Fantasy VII