30 Dec 2025, 7:40 am
I think I found a decent explanation of where a good portion of it came from.
And that difference is somewhat closely related to the human fundamentals that it's no wonder why I questioned the nature of it all, when everyone else just doesn't.
It's not like I'm an academic or a seeking mystic -- it just happens. It just things that I kept coming across on my quest to understand myself.
The things I tend to see in almost everyone acts upon that I just don't.
The very things everyone insists to have, even if they're ND, yet that I do not.
But yeah, it's impossible to imitate it.
If someone else tries to live and exist as I do, unless they have years of practice at certain meditative practices; they'd lose their sense of self, their sense of meaning, their psychological anchor, and fragment...
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30 Dec 2025, 9:00 am
Fries and hotdogs for New Year's eve.
50/50 chance my household will be celebrating it at the apartment or to the new old home. 
But fireworks remain the same source; from my cousins.
Haha! "New old home".
It's basically a renovated version of the house I lived in before my household moved into the apartment I've currently living in now.
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30 Dec 2025, 11:38 am
30 Dec 2025, 1:53 pm
On my mind right now.
FF64 sent me a text this morning asking if I could print her a miniature twirling baton, like marching band twirlers throw around (at might be funny), doing fancy twirling tricks. Her grand daughter has won some baton twirling competitions. Her life centers around her family, her adult children, their partners, and her grandkids. I have never known a nicer Neurotypical family, all very kind and caring. I would say her daughters are pretty darn close to Fred Rogers level of kindness.
TO THE POINT!
She wanted to know if I could make a 3D-Printed throwing baton? She is going to glue it onto a little figure for her grand daughter. There are two parts to this answer.
Yes, a two inch baton could be 3D-printed.
No, I do not have a print design for a baton, and so far I have not designed anything from scratch.
I am questioning if it has to be 3D-Printed? People have been making miniatures for hundreds or more years. There are thing and methods that could be more direct. On the other hand designing a long skinny cylinder with knobby things on the ended and faux ribbon wrapped around it, and maybe tiny tassels at the ends would be a good learning opportunity?
So typing this about that is what is on my mind right now.
Tangent: The Spirit of Christmas Yet To Come is my favorite Christmas Carol spirit/spector. It makes sense it never talks. We are not meant to know about what is to come. We can ask questions, scream questions, whimper questions (oops. quickly turning into an Ingmar Bergman film), and It answers us with stillness and silence. Gives me the chills! Thankfully it does not answer us with a red balloon. Shudder... 
30 Dec 2025, 1:55 pm
FF64 sent me a text this morning asking if I could print her a miniature twirling baton, like marching band twirlers throw around (at might be funny), doing fancy twirling tricks. Her grand daughter has won some baton twirling competitions. Her life centers around her family, her adult children, their partners, and her grandkids. I have never known a nicer Neurotypical family, all very kind and caring. I would say her daughters are pretty darn close to Fred Rogers level of kindness.
TO THE POINT!
She wanted to know if I could make a 3D-Printed throwing baton? She is going to glue it onto a little figure for her grand daughter. There are two parts to this answer.
Yes, a two inch baton could be 3D-printed.
No, I do not have a print design for a baton, and so far I have not designed anything from scratch.
I am questioning if it has to be 3D-Printed? People have been making miniatures for hundreds or more years. There are thing and methods that could be more direct. On the other hand designing a long skinny cylinder with knobby things on the ended and faux ribbon wrapped around it, and maybe tiny tassels at the ends would be a good learning opportunity?
So typing this about that is what is on my mind right now.
Tangent: The Spirit of Christmas Yet To Come is my favorite Christmas Carol spirit/spector. It makes sense it never talks. We are not meant to know about what is to come. We can ask questions, scream questions, whimper questions (oops. quickly turning into an Ingmar Bergman film), and It answers us with stillness and silence. Gives me the chills! Thankfully it does not answer us with a red balloon. Shudder...
This it an obvious attempt at procrastination.
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31 Dec 2025, 3:10 am
i remember another white winter, after "beyrouth" we (bf+me) got to live a while with the white (haired)version of darkhaired bf, in some bulldozered area with one last row of houses standing, the last one in the row, where the white gnome heated the room with electric cooking plates, electricity tapped from the mains
as i was usually the silent girl, then we had 2 girls also visiting and being silent,
they was what i was , it was not annoying or anything, i think
these old workershouses had outdoor toilets, in the oldfashionned way
one strange thing though, i got ill and passed out, woke up in the attic, where they had brought me
hindsight, woud they have left me there for dead? probably - idk
it was all very surreal, and a lot of amphetamine philosopy with that
intrresting links though, until quite later amph wasn't forbidden
(only for members, slate, -Auden, Sartre, Graham Greene, Ayn Rand: They loved amphetamines.)
(Amphetamine as a social drug: Effects of d-amphetamine on social processing and behavior)
wait, also, many a user was already treated with that as a child, for behaviour challenges
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