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At least I've got a full charge in my Bluetooth headphones for tonight

No matter how much I complained about it; it doesn't change the damn fact that I'm currently in an unwanted hormonal phase that's making me feel very stressed and tired, while not letting me rest or even sleep despite doing nothing but whatever I'm supposed to "need" or if what I want if that's even allowed.

Or, heck, not tired, not sick, not stressed by sleepy and lazy or whatever.

So it doesn't matter.
Where I'm, what I'm doing.
It's this damn body.

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I looked at Schultz with his hanky and asked, "That's the image you want to show the world?" I answered. "At least I'm being honest about myself."

You know you're ready for the new year when you're drawn to something familiar.

I was a huge Kinks Fan before I fell pray to the neon, glowing maid.

Music.

I broke down and cried yesterday. Guess what episode of Hogan's Heroes was on last night? Psychic Kommandant. One of the 5 episodes where Schultz breaks down and cries.

I've seen some people struggling with white sticks lately
All I can say is that there must be a shortage of dogs

I wonder what peas would look like on another planet. Would they be Pea-Noms instead of vegetables?

I wonder if I might have Schizophrenia if I want so badly to be a pea.

How do I type screaming at the horror of what is going on, a woman was murdered by ICE and the feds are justifying it. f**k that.....I saw the video I know what I saw, Europe knows what they saw....that that Ice agent was in no danger when he shot....we know we saw it, we're not insane.

But f**k idk even people who have seen that still insist ICE was ine right, but WTF....and I am afraid to call my dad, he lives in minnesota, so idk if he supports this I think I will yell at him...but he hates cops so hopefully now he can see what trump is doing is wrong now that his state is getting attacked by law enforcement. He has to see it now, right...he has to know this is wrong(but I am afraid he won't see it, Idk if it wasn't my dad I'd tell him to f**k off for his dumb ignorant opinions sometimes...but I can't help caring about him f*****g ignorant parents....and feelings of caring about them.

One of the newest thing I had realized:
It's not about ending a story, but letting it go altogether.

No wonder why I hate stories and getting so sick of it...
... It's how I best process people! !!

And why my daydreams do not end; I'm trying to end it when it's not possible.

So when I look at my parents; do I see them like a story or a story behind them?
No. I see them more like interfaces. A good portion of people I meet in real life are.

How about myself? Do I see a story?
Not really. More like they're the show that I was forced to watch in detail.
And if I'm a story, it's the very one I'm utterly sick of the most.

The people I liked? I see them more like... Stories, really, than someone I can be with.
Stories that I like. Sure, sometimes I like the idea of future around those people but?
Ultimately, they're stories that I happened to like.

No wonder why the route of 'strangers with memories' do not work well with me.
That only ever applies to people I only ever recently meet, and never anytime earlier.

How about my childhood neighbor friends?
I see them more like a story that I had prematurely had to end.
And they're very nostalgic. Despite meeting them early and having to interact with them, they don't feel like interfaces.

I guess...
This is another thing I realized in playing a game that kept me sane during burnout.
I admit it's a little... Bittersweet, with the current circumstances that leads me to that realization.

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I think shrinkflation has taken away some of the tsssshhhhh when you open a tin of pop

Some people's personalities are like montages