MjrMajorMajor wrote:
Lace-Bane wrote:
Lace-Bane wrote:
I've finally figured out that my eyes are sensitive to light... which is why I can feel and function great walking in overcast weather, and when at home playing guitar, cooking, cleaning, and reading from books. But throw in 20 minutes of video games and my mind is a emotional and cognitive mess of chaos for nearly a week. This rather sucks... as to perform as a non miserable Lace-Bane, I can't play games, nor read for more than maybe an hour on backlit screens... as far as the sun, I don't think there's anything to do about that aside from getting sun glasses. This is on my mind, because it's rather huge... and has been messing with my life and interactions with people for it's entirety

Edit: to clarify, I am rather susceptible to migraines... the kind that make your mind not function higher than dazed and confused status for days afterward and feel like rot. I suspect a correlation as the symptoms of a migraines aftermath are similar, and focusing on lit objects is forcing a trigger.
False...
Read an article on symptoms of extreme involuntary isolation and it makes far more sense. I just didn't have any idea going only a year and a half without any companionship and sustaining relatively frivolous quality human interaction on an infrequent basis could have such impact on the mind's ability to function in terms of being able to focus and think... I only knew it led to despair which I attacked with meditation and keeping busy. Suppose this problem is something rather urgent to tackle before it gets worse

It sounds like two very separate issues, unless the migraines are stress triggered. I also have some issues with backlit screens (not to the same extent), but I've found that reading on my old reader or turning the back lighting to a very dim level helps a lot. Either way, I hope you feel better.

I thank you for your sympathies
I'm certainly experiencing difficulties tied to isolation, which the light wouldn't particularly be a symptom of I don't believe. So it's probably more than a single answered explanation.
I've decided I'm just going to set up a visit to a doctor. I'm new to my area so it should be fun... since this is also my first venture out on my own far away from family, and I've never done such before. I'd rather have a doctor run some work just to make sure I'm not ill, and recognize isolation is something I have to work on on my own. Too many physical symptoms are arising quickly and they sort of point to diabetes, though hopefully there's an explanation that proves otherwise... It would be ironic, as I've eaten quite healthily for the last year. I'd been a sugar binging junk food addict 25 years prior >_>
Thank you too for the suggestion on dimming the screen... it does let the eyes relax a bit