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The Olympics are over. The haters can stop reminding me.

Warmpics more like it .

triumphalism , jingoism, unfair play (ends justify the means) chest beating, flag waving and than some.

Surprised more people cant see it (sad really)

Waking up!

Only got about 4 hours of sleep last night, so I'm pretty tired. I'm going to go to bed a few hours earlier than usual so that I can catch up on my beauty rest.

I have to go to the doctor today. I don't want to get ready or leave the house or have them touch me and look at me but I need to go because I think there might by something wrong with me and I haven't gone in a long time.

^I hope that it goes ok at the doctors hanyo.

Not getting enough sleep and I kept waking up anxious last night which wasn't helped by the owl that has been noisy for several nights now.

just feeling alone in a vast world, knowing that except for my kids, nobody will ever love me. Or if by chance someone was stupid enough to love me, I would be so creeped out by such an occurance that I would hate them.

this morning was a very sunny morning, and i was in a dreamy state after i got up, and i was vaguely attending to things as i became more awake and aware of what i had to attend to. there was not much to attend to.

as i was dreamily looking at the weather on the "weather" page, the phone suddenly rang and i was jolted out of my drowsy complacency. my most valued customer was on the other end of the line, and he was complaining that the chips delivered to him today were unacceptable, and his seated customers were not eating them and a few were complaining.
i told him that i would replace his chips within 3 hours. i could not prevail upon my driver to do this delivery because he had finished for the day, and i am fair.

i rang my supplier and told him about the situation, and he gave me an inadequate response and then told me that the depot was closed anyway, so there was no chance of me getting replacement chips until the next day.

obviously that would not do, so i rang my supplier's supplier, and organized to buy 16 x 10kg bags of chips. i then went directly there and put the chips in my car, and then i went directly to the shop. the shop is 100km away!! it took 1.5 hours to drive there. the whole trip took more than 5 hours.


i dropped off the chips, and then embarked upon my return journey to home, and i was then entrenched in traffic gridlock that was proceeding at a glacial pace. i was not yet at the point of "blowing a gasket", but i was being pushed toward that situation.

as i proceeded along the choked flow of the "expressway" at about 20 kph i thought "at least we are moving, and with every ensuing exit road, there will be a substantial bleeding off of traffic resulting in a more rarefied flow that can maintain the speed limit" .

the traffic dissolved after the final exit point for sydney metropolitan dwellers as i suspected, so my temperament was calmed by the fact that what i expected to happen happened, and also now i could drive unobstructed at 80kph+. that release was thwarted when the 4 lane highway merged to a 2 lane road by an imbecile who entered the road from a side street (forcing me to brake), and proceeded to drive at 30 kph in front of me. there was no one behind me, so i can not understand why he pulled out in front of me forcing me to decelerate substantially.

so the thing that tripped me in to unhappiness was having to suffer the saga of trailing a paranoid idiot who drives at 35 kph in a 60 zone. that was the final straw and i became angry then. thank goodness it lasted for only a few kilometers, because i was then able to turn into my driveway , and the situation was instantly diffused.

I woke up. Ah, the little things in life.

People giving me a hard time about my special interests. People putting down my special interests. It makes me feel unwelcome and afraid to say much of anything on WP, because I'm afraid that people are going to attack me on account of my special interests. I've wanted to leave
WP many times, because people have been saying nasty things about my special interests, because they're not their special interests. 1984 was the year that things came together for me. The Kinks and the Olympics bring back a lot of happy memories of the last year that I would truly be happy up until late 2009. I've started my period the next year in 1985 at the age of 10 and I haven't felt natural since than. I make an effort to be happy despite that fact. instead of putting down each other's interests, we really should be walking in each other's shoes. I was going to leave WP, but I've decided to post this instead. The reason I haven't left or that I won't be leaving, is because I don't want to give the haters the satisfaction. If I give the haters the satisfaction, they will win and I will lose and I don't want to be a loser.

Hater's gonna hate!

couldn't agree more. glad it's over


don't tempt me

i've been really tired lately. might be dehydration or iron levels or lack of decent sleep. either way i feel really tired from my waking moment till i hit the pillow at night.
also seeing what the government is doing to refugees. it seems the liberals and labour party have reached an agreement on what inhumane policy to enact. i liked it better when they were squabbling. this is worse than the howard era. thi smakes me feel sick. we're having a snap protest later today.

It's comments like these that make me feel unwelcome.

They said they saw precancerous or cancerous cells. I might have cervical cancer. Depending on the test results they get back in 24-48 hours I'll either have to go for another test Thursday or they'll refer me somewhere for treatment. They are going to try to get me signed up for a program that pays for tests and treatment.

Today I found out that a great colleague and someone I could probably call a work friend is quitting his job. It's going to make my work so much harder.