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i am sooooooo behind it is not funny. i have written 1148 words out of the 4500 words i need to have done by friday next week. and as much as i hate hanging round queerspace when there are people there, i did want to go see the movie they were gonna screen for queer week.

I asked a bunch of friends if they wanted to go to the Green Day concert in a few months, and they all said no. I even said not to worry about the price and I would pay for part of their ticket if they couldn't afford it. I went and bought two tickets in case anyone changes their mind. I really don't want to go alone.

It seems that right now, no matter wha tI eat and how much of it, I have a sick feeling and find it hard to swallow. My parents are really worried. I DON'T WANT TO BE ANOREXIC!! !! I'm thin enough as it is!! !

So I got my new figure skating blades today. That made me happy. What made me unhappy was that they don't line up with the screw holes already on the skates, thus I need to get $30 to have a coach mount them on. Yay. I've been waiting for these blades since June, though, and I neglected to have my old blades put on the skates for those few months because of the mounting, not just cost, but I'd end up with 3 sets of holes in the skates which wouldn't be good, but it's gonna probably with my luck be another week at the very least of waiting to skate in good skates.

My old skates are holding me back, as they're not like, really high level skates, but worse, they're really beat. I have like a dozen screws in each skate I added myself to hold the boot together. So they're basically unsafe to skate in. And by contrast, my new boots (well they're used) are quite literally professional quality, very nice and stiff and I bought them off someone who's a Junior National level skater, so to stare at a shoebox with super awesome expensive skates that you can't use is a bit disheartening.

Yep.

I accidentally bought a month's subscription to an MMO I can't even play. I was just reviewing a special offer and ugh... Of considerably more importance than that, the psychologist didn't arrive today.

I'm just sick of being unemployed and poor...

UK government are making being unemployed and disabled even more difficult - it's really hard to get disability benefits (more so if you're autistic), and there's introducing new rules that reduce payments, and if we don't (or CAN'T due to disability or lack of jobs) follow work plans then we not only lose over a weeks worth of benefit but we also risk being kicked off benefits for three years. I'm sick of being stressed about what all this means for me - homeless again? autism getting worse? - and being annoyed that people worse than me are being punished for governments incompetence, yet no one seems to care.

I'm sick of being out of work and having no idea how to fix it - as I couldn't go to university there are only so many things I can do, unfortunately either my autism causes problems or such jobs don't offer enough hours...although it's a moot point given as there are no jobs. Sick of being made out to be lazy. I'd LOVE to work, to go to college, or to volunteer, but there are no jobs and while on benefits I can't go to college or volunteer (I've tried before and been forced to stop, and right now it may effect my benefits).

After almost a month I finally got my disability benefits re-started...in the mean time I've had to contact food banks and eat out of date food to stop myself from starving, I've not been able to pay bills, my electricity is close to being cut-off, I had no money for gas so I wasn't able to wash my clothing or take baths, my housing and tax benefits have been stopped, and I've got additional charges from both my bank and my energy company for missed payments. It's a pain trying to get back on top of everything...

...with all that I still get criticised...two people made snide comments about my visiting my boyfriend last month (he lives in another country, I couldn't afford to pay to travel there, he paid for me). I've had someone make a comment about the fact I ate something nice for my dinner (see above about food banks, I've been struggling to feed myself and now I have money I thought I'd make myself something nice - still out of potato and beans so hardly expensive!!). I have to walk everywhere, I've been wearing the same pair of shoes for months now that barely have a sole left so my feet are covered in blisters...I tried to fix them a little by putting cardboard in the bottom, but the glue leaked-out so didn't work and thus I have to buy new shoes...someone attacked me for planning on buying new shoes rather than making do or buying from a charity shop (new from a budget shop costs less than from a charity shop right now)...

...it's like that all the time when you're on benefits, you're not allowed anything nice or even just basic.

My best friend came over to my house, but her mom grounded her from coming here for a month because she forgot to text her mom back.

She lives in the neighborhood next to mine, we can walk there! It's not like she'll be kidnapped in a neighborhood full of kids.

I've had a massive headache for the last 11 hours, and it still persists. Maddening.

I hate political ads. They have so much vitriol and venom these days. UGH.

I'm... Just not in a good place mentally or emotionally right now. I might make a thread about it in The Haven.

"Everything" would be an understatement right now.

i went to queer collective today because there was an icecream mashup advertised. i walked up to the door and heard many voices and so i went back downstairs, then i went back up because i changed my mind and forced myself to go in. it wasnt absolutely horrid but there were a lot of people. like a lot of people. it was really uncomfortable. i dont know if the icecream was worth it. one person was from my history tutorial. it was weird. and the queer officer freaks me out a little. i do not feel comfortable round her. i dont know why.

I'm annoyed with myself for forgetting about something and I've got a headache.

I'm unhappy because this world sux and I remembered about that song.....

I have mono. I went to the dr for the 3rd time. Third time's the charm? I saw a different dr every time, so you could say it took a third opinion to get it right.

Also, my Hot Pocket is dry. That means it takes more energy to chew. And I have absolutely NO energy.

Yahoo won't let me send any emails or replies sense I've been up today because Suspicious Activity has been detected on my account. I do not send a lot of emails & I didn't send many yesterday so i cant imagine why or how I could of triggered any suspicious activity warnings. I doubt my account has been hacked either. I do get LOTS of spam everyday from other Yahoo users thou & I really do think that Yahoo would not be restricting my ability to send email if I really had been a mass spammer. I submitted a form for Yahoo customers assistance about this but this like every other time I have ever submitted a request for assistance to Yahoo; there was a message that they are experiencing an unusually high number of request or something about ammount being usually high. How the f#ck can it be considered unusually high if s been high for years? That's the usual amount instead of being high.