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I was confused on why I was getting disoriented and losing track of the placement of my arms and such, and now I know. I've got an aura blocking most of my peripheral and central vision, and my mind is going mildly numb... I shall be getting a migraine in less than an hour and be wishing for death while curled up in a painful ball of agony >_>

I can't hardly even read what I'm writing because the aura lights are blocking my vision so hopefully there aren't errors

The fact that two of my WP friends were fighting today.

my throat is really sore. i can't swallow and saliva is just pooling in my mouth. i dont get why it is sore. it's not like i have a cold.
going to church and having an argument with my uncle who has polio about why the church only being accessible on one level is a bad thing. he talks like he is the only person with mobility issues who will ever need to access all levels and since he is all set and doesnt want to get to the top floor anyway it is ok. the fact that the church meets the bare minimum that is required by the law does not impress me.
church in general.
parents. listening to them make sexist and homphobic remarks about people in newtown(queer village). and then me. i got asked if i was gay so many times today. and for the first time i got asked if i was straight. or both. i had to outright lie as opposed to denying i am gay which is true.

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I am wondering why my life is still incomplete, even though I am a quarter-century old......... is it time for met of finally throw in the towel and move to some island far away?

Probably and it's STILL THERE.

It is holding me back from doing an important thing.

Feeling so sad and hopeless and I've given myself a headache crying.

my throat. i want to cut it out. i can't swallow. i can't eat because it hurts and i droolled all over my covers this morning.
tomorrow i have to do my routine but i don't know how it will go. my youth group is now in chippendale. i do not know where. it will not look the same and my trip will not be the same. the new building will not be externally decorated which i understand but do not like. it will not be redecorated because people complained they felt uncomfortable going up to the "big gay building" in front of people. i liked our building. it had rainbow sheep on it and the word "welcome" in different languages written on the walls. and it was buit in the 1800s i think.

I was looking forward to spening my week off school with my friend on another site, who is from England and sin Secondary school, but their week off turns out to be next week. And they get to haev the 31st Octobe off, which we both don;t care much about, but my Mum made me a costume and because I'll be back at school, I won't get to wear it all day! If only we could swap lives. And also, what if there are days next week when I can't come, and my friend gets bored cause NO ONE will be there?

Random episodes of paranoia.

my routine was screwed royally today because there was no youth group at all. i was very unhappy. i walked to the new place to check it out and i hate it. it's still being worked on and i want supposed to be there but it's horrid. it reminds me of an office not a home. that's what it smells like. and it doesnt look at all queer.
and my throat. i can't bear this. i can't swallow, the quality of my sleep has deteriorated because i wake up in pain so i'm tired all the time, i can't eat acidic or sweet things like fruit, vegies, milk, etc because it burns and feels scritchy and i can't yawn or open my mouth because it makes the muscles of my throat move which makes them hurt and i can't continuously drink tisanes because then i'll have to pee a lot. it hurts when i touch the outside of my neck too.
and i made a mango and banana milkshake and it tasted gross because the banana was gross and i didnt realise and it made my throat hurt too and made me feel sick in general.

edit: apparently i cannot burp either. and i shoud not eat mulberries because they are very painful. and i had to leave branch meeting tonight early because i developed a headache, stomache ache and ear ache on top of this.

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Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter is out on DVD, but Netflix is making people wait till November 20th to rent it. How stupid. I'll just buy the DVD for my birthday, which is sooner than that.

Today a fitness club in my country decided to turn into a strict "females only" fitness club as a result of the persistent "sexual harrassments" female fitnessers get by their male counterparts.

It's in the news.

I guess you shoulda listened when they told you to keep your hands to yourself!

I have to make a lot of phone calls today. And I REALLY hate talking on the phone.

Any sane minded person hates talking on the phone, trust me.

Vectors exam on a Wednesday. Not right after band! Nooooooo! *sobs violently*

I don't think I am ever going to live in L.A., not as long as these impediments in life get in my way.