Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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Accountant guy stopped at the pub nearby. Didn't ask me if I wanted to join him.

This creep in a blue van is driving around my neighborhood, and he keeps eying my sister. So my parent's are going to report him to the police.

As a result of that, I had to ride the stinky bus today.

I had a nosebleed.

Car got stuck last night, tried to get it out today, got it more stuck... but at least it's out of the way.

I forgot to put a diary entry in for 11-16.

my family. being around them just makes me feel depressed. my dad threatened to come to my house today and he was almost here when i told him i wasnt there he didnt come. i think i should get a dog or something. a scary one. he threatened to call the pigs on me too. and the thought of going to lebanon. im already getting pressured to do things i cannot like changing the way i dress and act and being pressured to go places and talk to people i do not want to. they want me to go to bars. bars are a bad idea. i just feel like im being a woman the wrong way when i am around them even though i know i am and i am doing it right and that people are just sexist but i still feel inadequate because i am not into heels, talking fashion, dresses, make up, jewellery, r 'n' b and things. i like jeans, mens clothes, politics, punk, refuse to wear jewellery or make up, do my hair up and do not shop in fancy places. people are also starting to drive in the fact that i dress like i cannot afford better and tell me that people will laugh at me. i cant afford better but there is nothing wrong with my clothes.

I am really short tempered ATM.

went to the teachers federation picnic. terrible. the fact that it was on a sunday was bad but what made it worse was that we started out leafleting for the gaza rally when a security guard came and shut us down. we then decided to go inside the picnic area by stealth so we wouldnt be barred from entry. we divided labour(i was to leaflet for the same sex marriage rally) and split up. i leafleted. it occurs to me that some of the men who took my leaflet might be heterosexual homophobes. at the time i thought they were being friendly but in hindsight i think they were sneering at the idea because they were saying things like "yeah i'll bring my husband" or "hey, that man over there- he might be interested" and laughing. most people were ok though. then security guard catches sight of me and it is the same one and he comes up to me and is like didnt i tell you to pack up and leave? he asks if anyone else is doing what i am doing or if i was doing this on my own. i play dumb and lie for my comrades but he catches sight of them too and we had to leave. what got me was that we were asked to leave because apparently the federation didnt want to be associated with us or our political activity(which they actually do support- their logo is on the same sex marriage rally leaflet and they support BDS). what further sh!ts me is that i am a a member, half of the group there were members and they didnt want to be associated with us! and the whole rally was political- they cannot claim to not want it to be. if this were the MUA or CFMEU...

I just broke my favourite coffee mug that has a cat on it.

Rough night; mum had to come over so she could watch X-Factor Grand Final (her floor's getting done so she can't use her own TV atm). It was unbearable. Gotta do it again tomorrow night. At least she's bringing some cooking.
And I also kinda snapped at a neighbour today because I thought she was backing out of her garage into my car. Apart from that I was kinda filled with bottled rage today. My red water daydreams were very nice.

Setting up a new computer for my mother and it's endless problems, which has set off
obsession-mode which means that I have been working on it 18 hours a day for almost a week. I'm so tired (& wired from obsessiveness) that I feel ill.

a lot of things. mostly family. also my 16 year old sister wants to become a cop(if she doesn't become a shrink). she thinks she will be protecting people. she is a terrible person and would make a great cop. she's already got the racial/religious profiling and classism bit going in addition to various other -isms. my 10 year old sister corrected her and said it wasn't her job to protect people, it was her job to put people in gaol. i raised that one.

Still being awake, even at 1:49 am. Blah.

today was my last visit to youthgroup and branch for 6 weeks. i shant wear appropriate tuesday attire for 6 weeks too. my potatoes are flowering(well, budding) and i shall not be here to harvest them and i cannot care for my herbs either. i haven't left yet and already i miss this place. homesick now. i wanna be here.

I've been trying to be friendlier with the neighbors, but I passed right by her in the grocery store without saying hi. It's very crowded in there, and I was focusing on my list.