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The fireworks scare my cats. A lot.

My parents were screaming at each other all morning. My bf is not off work like he thought he was gonna be, so I won't get to see him this week.

I hate this damn drowsiness.

what made me unhappy today is that i have to leave the wrong planet.
i am unable to receive feedback any more, so my time on wrong planet has now come to an end. thanks to everyone for being nice people and goodbye to you .




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b9, in the circumstances why don't you create a new account e.g. b9_2 ?
Granted it isn't an ideal solution but it is a work-around until Alex sorts out this nasty bug / flaw.

last night i was very tired, and what i said above was what i had decided after laboriously searching for threads that i had posted in, only to find no further development in those threads, and i thought "what a bloody waste of time!" however, i now reconsider that i will still post , but i will only check threads i have posted in within the last 3 days (rather than all the way back to 23-12-12).



because i am simply "b9". i do not want to have any other name. i have > 7000 posts ascribed to my username, and in a way, i think that fact protects me to a degree from suspicions of trolling when i submit an injudicious post.
also, i do not like emu eggs. as well, i want what i post between now and "when" the problem is rectified to be contained within the posting history of my original "b9" screen name.



well i think i can get used to my new routine of checking from my profile ("find all posts by b9"), and scanning the threads which house my posts that are less than three days old.
i submit about 2-3 posts per day, so it is not the enormous challenge i first feared it would be. all i have to sacrifice is my awareness of replies written to me more than 3 days after what i wrote (that their reply relates to).

My dog pissed all over my stuff this morning. Quite a fun thing to wake up to the sound of pee hitting your shoes.

My obstructionist parents flying off the handle because I spoke my mind, UGH!

a couple of days ago but it really upset me. um my cousin and i had a really big argument on new years eve. it was really big. like he asked me how my bus trips have been going and i stupidly told him exactly how they have been going. he knew about the guy who raped me and the guy who touched me but he didn't know about the 2 bus drivers who drove off with me. he completely flipped and that would have been okay if he hadn't flipped at me. i told you so is not what i wanted to hear, neither is you're naive or you should be careful and not let these things happen to you or you don't learn/ you don't listen to me/you won't learn till it happens again/if somebody doesn't try harass you tonight i'll cut myself and he yelled all these things at me and other things and he brought my religion, sexuality, politics and the fact that i don't live at home into it even though it has nothing to do with anything and i yelled back and i screamed "i don't f*****g care if i get raped. because who the f**k cares?!" because i was upset and angry and he yelled at me for feeling sorry for the guy who raped me and asking me what i would do if it happened again like i don't know the first time was bad and that STIs and pregnancy are bad and that the laws here won't protect me or telling me what i should have done the first time and he started getting personal and asking about my relationship with my dad and i was so near to crying but then we both went quiet because he realised he stepped over at least one line when he asked about my dad. it was bad. really bad. i am glad the dunkin' donuts workers stayed open a little after closing time and gave me a hot chocolate. i still felt upset but i needed something warm.

Humanity

I' m tired of misunderstandings and assumptions. I don' t know why I still give a d@mn.

Today my Dr said that my hair loss is probably not because of my illness, it would be quite odd for it to randomly start causing it after all these years (14).

So since I am eating enough, (meaning malnutrition would be due to food not staying in my body long enough to have nutrients drawn from it), he decided that it would be wise to test my thyroid since that is very common cause of hair loss.

I am not sure which is worse, the thought of yet another medical problem on my already long list, meaning more meds and the subsequent side effects I am so prone to, or not being able to figure out the cause.

First day back at work after a few days off. So f***ing tired. And it's so cold outside. And the air is so dirty. Welcome to January.

i'm nervous about my HIV test. if i am leaving lebanon at the date i was originally supposed to then it is tomorrow but if i am extending i can do it a few days later which would be better because on monday it will be exactly 6 weeks since i got raped and that is the window period for HIV. i tried calling the sexual health clinic i am using but i do not know if they are open yet so i do not know if i should travel from byblos to beirut. freaking out. this is one test i do not want a positive result for. i really want somebody to go with me but i can't ask anybody though there are one or two people i could talk to. i don't want to be alone when i go. i don't wanna get HIV. i don't wanna get HIV. i don't wanna get HIV.

Waking up in the middle of the night and being sick.

Being forced to go somewhere and wont be seeing my girlfriend for a bit.