Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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Remember this from a year ago?

Violating personal space in any public area at any time in this country is something nearly all old people really loooove to do.

So far for seeing me as a "should-suck-it-all-up" non-person I guess.

Boredom.

I am sad today.

im behind in uni.

Woke up from a stupid nightmare at 4AM and couldn't get back to sleep for love or money.

I was trying to defuse a bomb set up by my old work supervisors but Charlie Sheen (really!) was pestering and whining, not wanting to die but preventing me from defusing the same bomb the same people had set up three times prior. This time, the watch started beeping and I woke up in heart-pounding fear - despite not being at all afraid in the dream itself.

BIZARRE!!

The right side of my tongue is aching for no reason. Seems some ulcer or something. It happened to the left side a few weeks ago and healed. It interferes with my joy of eating.

The warm/hot season seems to be over. It's suddenly feeling quite cold. There doesn't seem to be autumn here.

Bad memories swirling around in my brain.

Online someone was planning on reporting a lupus sufferer for committing benefit fraud on the basis that they were doing things like walking the dog and going drinking...I made the mistake of pointing out that you can't always see disabilities or with certain conditions severely can change daily. I used myself as an example, pointing out that I occasionally go out drinking and dancing with friends, and I even travel abroad, but I'm still unable to work...that was of course a mistake, because I'm not sitting in a corner weeping on a daily basis I'm obviously capable of working and just scrounging off the system. I just don't understand this idea people have that being on benefits is somehow a luxury or that it's an easier option to working, and I hate feeling judgement from people if I dare have anything nice, even if it's something I have earned, have sacrificed for, or have been given by people who love me enough not to want to see me suffer.

I'm sick of having to feel ashamed of myself.

I have to work today.

My mom guilt-tripping me while I was eating breakfast this morning.

My uncle has cancer and recently reached a blood sugar level of 1000 because of therapy. My other uncle had a brain tumor recently. My great-uncle has cancer and regular heart attacks. My grandmother's heart is also failing. My other grandmother is recovering from chemo, and today I found out my little cousin, son of one of those uncles already mentioned has some sort of tumour up his nose. These are dark times for my family

it was a mistake

i'm having problems breathing. it feels like i can't suck in enough. and the sociopath at uni keeps talking to me. i hate the sound of his voice. he's so irritating. i want him to leave me alone.

Haven't had a decent night's sleep in almost 2 weeks. Last night I thought I heard children laughing outside my window at 3AM, but realized it was probably a mild hallucination due to sleep deprivation (and night time meds). That, or there's some seriously delinquent parents in the neighborhood.

I feel so wistful lately......... I want my past back.