Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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not getting stuff done. having my lecturer for my ed psych class be stupid about disability adjustments- i swear i have forwarded him the papers a three times and he still hasn't been able to find them or open the file. feel like i need to be next to him to help him open the frigging thing. having to wake up at 5:30 in the morning to go to a conference. saraha, i do not want to go. i am just pretending to be excited instead of making out that i would rather stay in bed and be in the dark for the next few days.

I want to go to the movies but nothing is playing.

I want to go to the movies but nothing is playing.

Nothing.

My desktop computer is going painfully slow. It's behaving the way other computers I've had have behaved when they had too little memory or a virus, but my computer has plenty of space and a virus scan revealed no infection. Hmm...

My grandparent's house is surrounded by fungi, which I have recently discovered I have an allergic reaction to. I think I might be getting sick in general, actually.

I want to go to the movies but nothing is playing.

Life.

My old chinchilla,Rosie died last night.I was her fourth owner.She was around 16 years old so she was elderly but it's still sad.

A woman I know died. She was one of the nicest people I have ever met. She died suddenly. I am very sad. She was easy to talk to and that rare for me.

Mosquitoes disrupting my sleep.
It's almost mid-autumn, MOSQUITO SEASON SHOULD BE FINISHED, FOR GOD'S SAKE!

My landlord considers one hour for adequate notice that strangers are going to be trapsing through the apartment.

Sold something on Gumtree...for less than it's worth, and buyer agreed to pick-up after 5 but still not here at 7.30...yes 'after 5' is a bit vague, but I'd consider it polite not to have someone sitting waiting for hours.

my friend and her sister came over and basically made a mess. i love her, but she and her family aren't exactly the neatest people ever.
i actually got anxiety because in the bathroom, the shampoo bottles got put out of order.

Having a low moment - I don't like being allowed to think.
I miss who I used to be, I miss having a job and I miss having friends.

It hurts that people I once considered friends no longer talk to me...not because they dislike me, but because there was something missing in our relationship that meant it was just able to dissolve, vanish without even so much as a whisper. My no longer being in their lives is such a non-issue it's like I was never there to begin with. There is something missing in me, whatever it is that's needed to allow friendships to form - I wish I could make what few friends I have understand that, and I wish I could let them know how desperately I wish I could have a normal friendship with them. I fear what happens when I have no friends.

I see other peoples friendships, groups of friends that have been together since school, I wish I could have that - you know what I think of when I think of 'friendship'? The opening credits to 'How I Met Your Mother'...and on that confession I realise I'm being a sad-sack so go back to getting on with things...

It basically all comes down to my own impatience, but I feel like I've been socializing too much not to have connected with hardly anyone as deeply as I would like to. Seems like I have just been skimming along from one event to the next, and today was a great day, but I noticed that and was getting down about it. Although, I do feel like I am starting to get to know some of my compatriots better.

To put it in other words, I think I basically wish I got the same butterflies from my social connections that I do from listening to music. This is concerning because maybe it means I am trying to perpetually dose myself and keep myself "high" on life, trying to get a fix of happy brain chemicals.

I also wish I could be more present in the moment socially, still working on that. Trying to keep up with the social graces, and remember to do nice things for people in the moment.