dcj123 wrote:
Raleigh wrote:
Ok, you said you were only going to talk to one member here.
I was confused because I didn't know you were skyping etc.
And I didn't want to talk if I was going to upset you again.
Which I think I did.
Sorry.
No one has upset me other than myself, I just don't see things coming and I get socially blind sided like I said. What hurts me from people is when they skype me, text me, call me and tell me they care about me and will be friends with me no matter what and than they curse me out, stop talking to me, hold resentment towards me. I am fine with all three of those things but I just want people to be clear about their intentions, I get hurt otherwise. This is what happened at my last church, they told me they cared and than they yelled at me and said I use autism as an excuse. Honestly I believe it is what happened at my last church that is causing my problems recently, even though I haven't dealt with them in months, I can't deal with how things went. So when I get into an argument with my parents or I lose a friend like what happened this last weekend, I am reminded of what happened at church and can't cope.
I hope that makes sense...
Example of this post,
My pastor back in early September - Word per word via text
"You're already welcome back at church, you don't need to do anything to be accepted"
My pastor in late September - Adlib a bit from a verbal conversation
"You are the one with a problem, you act in unforgiveness and expect others to forgive you when in reality you use autism as an excuse to hurt my family"
Wow really well than f**k it all to hell,