Joined: 6 Jan 2011 Age: 36 Gender: Female Posts: 35,278 Location: Somewhere in Colorado
19 Apr 2016, 3:02 am
Sweetleaf wrote:
when people act like they are into something you're into, except around certain people...as if around some people they are too ashamed to show they share a similar interest that I do. people that you try to convince yourself don't act like that...but in the end you know it is at least in part exactly how they are acting...I know the look that says...'hey please dont bring that up because I am embarrased for this person to see it/dont embarass me in front of friends/family/whatever."
Still this even the people you don't think would be ashamed to mention it, prove to be...I guess I am the only one whos had this experience here....suppose for the rest of you that is an alien experience, someone acting interested but giving you that 'don't mention it please I am embarrased' look around certain people.
Joined: 28 Feb 2016 Age: 45 Gender: Female Posts: 804 Location: My living room
19 Apr 2016, 11:54 am
I'm in a place with some noise, and sax. I don't know whether it's a cd or someone playing. I like that. Music helps me focus and be calm when there's noise. And so I was thinking about that song, I have before, co-written. I kept listening out of curiosity and an element of comparison, to other pm dawn songs. Even the music sounds different. So much Ni in it. I can't get to understand Chris Carter. Even Gillian said weird, she's complex, but not as hard as (she) said to understand. But with that song, I can, sort of. Was it really co-written? Out of the details. I don't think so. Yes it's personal reasons, no, I won't talk. Each time I see you, I wonder. And I have nothing to know but ponder, and wonder. If you never say goodbye. Any second?
_________________ "Ever since I was a child, I’ve never allowed myself to get too close to people. I’ve avoided emotional attachment. Perhaps I’ve been so afraid of death and dying that any connection just seemed like a bad thing, something that wouldn’t last." Dana Scully - Christmas Carol.
Joined: 8 Jul 2015 Gender: Male Posts: 1,297 Location: Kent, UK
19 Apr 2016, 12:10 pm
I am extremely nervous about an upcoming job interview at a daycare centre. As it's an apprenticeship I would be earning considerably less than I am currently receiving now for my difficulties/disabilities. I don't really know why I applied because they are looking for someone to engage with both the children and their parents/caregivers. It's tempting to cancel but I don't think I have much to lose anymore.
_________________ "Every day, once a day, give yourself a present. Don't plan it, don't wait for it, just let it happen. " - Special Agent Dale Cooper, Twin Peaks
Joined: 28 Feb 2016 Age: 45 Gender: Female Posts: 804 Location: My living room
19 Apr 2016, 12:15 pm
^^^ apprentice. You will learn. You worry about it you will pay even more attention. It'll be fine. Good luck.
_________________ "Ever since I was a child, I’ve never allowed myself to get too close to people. I’ve avoided emotional attachment. Perhaps I’ve been so afraid of death and dying that any connection just seemed like a bad thing, something that wouldn’t last." Dana Scully - Christmas Carol.
Joined: 8 Jul 2015 Gender: Male Posts: 1,297 Location: Kent, UK
19 Apr 2016, 12:31 pm
Thank you. But my chances of being successful at the interview are, to put it mildly, extremely poor.
_________________ "Every day, once a day, give yourself a present. Don't plan it, don't wait for it, just let it happen. " - Special Agent Dale Cooper, Twin Peaks
Joined: 4 Mar 2013 Age: 46 Gender: Male Posts: 141 Location: San Francisco
19 Apr 2016, 5:31 pm
I am constantly thinking about moving and leaving the expensive city of San Francisco and have many multiple places in mind, all ranging from Oregon, Washington, Colorado, Arizona, or New Mexico. I constantly look out local real estate searches in the area, and even look on OkCupid to see what the dating pool is like in each area. I'm terrified that if I move, I'm afraid I won't find a romantic partner with mutual attraction and I will be stuck lonely in a new area again.
I have dreams about this stuff frequently too, where I just want to be loved. Sometimes I find her, but I wake up just as she seems to be leaving me.
_________________ INTJ
Former game designer, therapist, professor
I'm a cross between a wiseman, a hermit, and a shapeshifter
Joined: 4 Mar 2013 Age: 46 Gender: Male Posts: 141 Location: San Francisco
19 Apr 2016, 5:43 pm
Sweetleaf wrote:
Sweetleaf wrote:
when people act like they are into something you're into, except around certain people...as if around some people they are too ashamed to show they share a similar interest that I do. people that you try to convince yourself don't act like that...but in the end you know it is at least in part exactly how they are acting...I know the look that says...'hey please dont bring that up because I am embarrased for this person to see it/dont embarass me in front of friends/family/whatever."
Still this even the people you don't think would be ashamed to mention it, prove to be...I guess I am the only one whos had this experience here....suppose for the rest of you that is an alien experience, someone acting interested but giving you that 'don't mention it please I am embarrased' look around certain people.
Unauthentic behavior also bothers me too. I used to be the one that people would sometimes say 'Please don't bring that interest again' like my ability to talk like a pirate. It's really demeaning and shows the contempt that other person has for your behaviors as a reflection of that person who is saying to stop.
_________________ INTJ
Former game designer, therapist, professor
I'm a cross between a wiseman, a hermit, and a shapeshifter