Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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I didn't think this period was going to be a bad one, but... I went downhill pretty fast.

I started typing up a post on Reddit, until I realized that I wasn't making any sense and I was becoming emotional.

I decided to take a cold shower, which did help to clear my mind.

Then it hit me like a ton of bricks - I am really not feeling well.

I feel extremely dizzy/light-headed. I'm starting to cramp up, too.

I might have to meet someone I don't like today at my aspie group.

My wife won't be home for the holidays. I willbe alone.

Too much coffee and not enough sleep.

My mom's been making me feel really guilty lately. I failed ONE CLASS last semester and she's stressing on me to fix that grade. She keeps calling me a horrible student and just makes me feel guilty and stressed. I'm just... done.

It doesn't even matter that my grades are perfect right now. Ugh.

I'm bored.

I'm tired.

An unreliable and unresponsive computer science student is annoying me. Now I have to do all the work tonight because he failed to do it before.

I found out today from DSHS that I don't qualify for financial assistance but my disability doesn't rise to the level of Federal guidelines.

I also tried to donate plasma but the blood bank said I don't qualify because of my past and my high blood pressure.

I went to my bank to get a personal loan but they said I don't qualify because I'm unemployed and have an old unsatisfied tax lien.

I tried to get legal funding online from separate sources but they said, per Federal guidelines, they can't help me out.

I'm up the creek without a paddle. Figuratively, I'm drowning here, I'm drowning here.

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Today was a Christmas get-together at work. I had signed up for it, bought a gift, set my alarm. Woke up, and, as usual, did not go. I regret it now, but I could not face getting up, getting ready, taking two buses, just to nibble at some food (I can't eat when I am nervous), sit in a corner, feel awkward and out of place, and not talk to anyone.

I regret it now, maybe it would not have been so bad,maybe I should have tried.

Either choice was a bad one.

Sometimes I wish so much that I wasn't like this.

Sylkat

What made me feel the most unhappy and annoyed today were a couple of tv programs I watched. I can assure you that I am in a really bad mood while I'm typing this and it's all because I just watched two arrogant, bigoted dickheads who (unfortunately) are the "hosts" of a dutch talkshow. I haven't watched that show in a long time because I know by now that it never fails to piss me off so it's my own fault that I put myself through this miserie tonight.

I can be in a perfectly good mood untilll I switch an the tv and get lured into watching certain programs I really and utterly dislike. I don't know why I keep watching them because they annoy me to the point of seething anger. It's almost like I am punishing myself. I am not talking about english or american programs this time but about some of the below average tv programs ont he dutch tv. I tell myself time and time again that I am not going to watch tv anymore because it can affect me in a negative way but the problem is that there are some programs that really catch my interest. The mistake I keep making is that I don't switch the tv off after they are finished.

Tried for, like, an hour to place a hold on Pokemon SoulSilver on the Gamestop website, but it keeps saying that they can't process it right now. So frustrating!

Still don't know if my husband is going to get laid off soon. We're planning for the worst and hoping for the best, but it's annoying to be kept in limbo.

I can't find the dvd I am looking for.

I just spilled coffee on and around my laptop where I have a lot of documents etc stacked. Coffee went between documents etc. It's a huge mess.