DataB4 wrote:
I definitely find meaning in giving to others, so yes, I do find some meaning in life. I get the sense that some people here can also relate to my feeling though that so much of everyday conversation is superficial, providing only crumbs of meaning. In general, I need to find a way to make peace with the idea that I have to cultivate a meaningful life, moment by moment, trying things, hoping they work, hoping that mundane tasks lead to meaningful results, ETC. Otherwise, I'll keep feeling sad and frustrated.
I also prefer deeper conversations. Deeper one on one conversations with someone I trust, can give some comfort. Or talking about something one have in common, but it isn't often I meet someone like that, and for me it takes very long time to develope trust. For me, interacting with other people only feels meaningfull if I can be/dare to be myself. Otherwise it just nourishes the shame.
Actually making my own dinner more or less from scratch, and doing the dishes (even though there is a dishwaher in the apartment) did give a feeling of meaning in a way when I started doing it. It's something practical, so it means a little less time spent doing nothing.