blue_bean wrote:
I was brave and went ahead seeing my psych today.
She wants me to keep some lame "feelings" diary. And I told her I post here, so hi Wendy!

I would never tell a psych that I post here cuz I'm fairly guarded with em. I may appear to be comfortable talking to em after a while but I do NOT tell em some stuff that I post about. This is kind of like a fantasy/escape thing for me in a way. I am
real &
honest but at the same time certain elements of myself here I not appear to have offline if this makes sense

I do not want anyone who knows me offline to read this but I am NOT really comfortable with anyone. I highly doubt anyone I know offline would actually be here anyways so I have nothing to worry about. I would copy some of my post & maybe do a little bit of editing & print em up for a doc/psych
Good news is I seem to be over that sickness but I ate something bad a few days ago(I posted about it in the barf thread) & I'm over that now.
Anyways what I want to rant about here is how I
HATE sleeping alone

I posted about it in the Heaven section but I'm kind of tired & lonely rite now & going to bed will make me feel worse. I seriously need a girl-friend/wife. I have a lot of problems thou & women see me as a ogre & do NOT give me a decent chance. I have a lot of good qualities thou lots of people would tell me that being sensitive & devoted/loyal & putting a partner 1st is a bad thing.
Why is it that we can clone corn & sheep but I can not have a female clone made of myself

I'd get along much better with someone who's like me & I understand myself better than others. I'm already my own best friend