sidetrack wrote:
Those wh love to be feared, feared to be loved.
Why do you say that?
sidetrack wrote:
I am demonized b/c I don't socialize and I don't socialize b/c I' demonized.
Hence how limited I am when it comes to being up for interaction.
My neurology makes it so that interacting with ppl is an aggravating ordeal even once the effort from my no-talent body at doing menial work is hurdled over.----it's enough that I would even put the question of relationships and possibilities 'out of the question'---I can 'shoehorn' in my old pornography viewing problem, but I don't care to elaborate on it.
That's a really rough vicious cycle. Do you, or do they, ever try to break it?
sidetrack wrote:
I don't quite like clerics and I mean to go to 'spiritual counseling' if only the basis of actually revealing in a more 'topic relevant' forum what I think about spirituality with a diminished 'rancor'.
I don't understand this part. Are you saying you are angry at some aspect of spirituality, or that people will be angry for some reason?
sidetrack wrote:
D--- this homework, a barely passing mark, a 30% attached exam which makes things all the more annoying while having to put up with an instructor who has a few other similarities to some one who detrimentally impacted my life aside from the 'unpleasant-ish personality and like ~2 yrs away from retirement' thing. Etc,etc,etc.
~"B/c knowing the cause won't change...", I can see as even applying to how likely I am to doing homework while not feeling too well since Wednesday.
I'm sick too at the moment, if that's what you mean. Feel better. And that sucks about your instructor, but doing your homework is about your future, not about how much you like or hate your instructor. I can understand though how the instructor doesn't exactly lift your spirits or encourage you to do the work.

I'm also procrastinating on work I need to do, even though there are periods of the day when I felt well enough to write on this forum or briefly talk to someone.