Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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I had to wake up early.

I bought my kid a Cam recorder so he can make his own youtube videos.
When I opened it, it didnt have any software to go with it, so I had to go to where they told me to go on the net to download it.
Got there and all I got stuffed in my face is a download that wanted to advertise at me and to buy even more stuff. that REALLY pissed me off. needless to say the download was corrupt, I am assuming because I refused to watch all the advertising and skipped it all. so I had to look elsewhere on the net for what was needed. I finely got all that was needed and got it working. but it really pissed me off that the software not only didnt come with it, I was being forced to deal with even more advertising crap and hunt down the drivers I needed instead of it being readily available.. it was brand new for gods sakes.

Got into another dispute with my parents; I called the cops as a result.

i need coffee.

That swimming session made me ill, it appears I've been away from the pool for too long. But hey, at least I didn't sink to the bottom like an old cone.

I overslept (and I got almost 9h of sleep thanks to it - but it didn't help me much) and I got late to my weekend school then right after entering class I got an info I am supposed to hand my website project to get it graded. It was not ready and I haven't known the due date is today (apparently everyone was surprised but well... "I am not everyone, I must not be surprised! I must always know everything!" - that's how my mind treats me in situations like this) so I got overwhelmed. I managed to say "I'm sorry... I will be back in a few minutes", left the classroom as calmly as I could and after closing the door.... I literally run to the bathroom, while my meltdown was starting. It took me a few minutes of crying and rocking. Then I fixed myself, got back into classroom, sat down... and finished the project within 15 mins - therefore I handed it faster than half of my class. My project ended up to be 3rd best in whole class (the teacher commented it that "the class is afraid of me and thats why I got so high score" - we were grading the projects of our classmates democratically using inquiry... he is so lame, he is like a super NT and seem to hate me because I never understand his point). I really need to believe in myself more and stop worrying that much. If I didn't meltdown I wouldn't be so tired - as a result of this I shutdown on my way back home when my friend tried to talk to me. I have no idea what she was saying. I hope she didn't feel insulted and my "Sorry, what did you say? I am so tired I can't focus..." was enough. That was a hard day. I'm glad it is almost over now. The meltdown was really unnecessary and bumped all energy out of me. I wish my mind stopped making me so much pain when there is no real cause!

I'm still not over the fact that I called the police on my parents. I really want a restraining order against them.

I had a meltdown at work, and ended up telling off a customer, which nearly resulted in her husband picking a fight with me. Luckily my floor manager separated him from me so that he wouldn't drag me into the parking lot and beat the s**t out of me, but afterwards I was given a lecture from one of the assistant managers, and another one phoned-in from the store manager. I ended up being sent home, and being suspended for the rest of the week without pay. Just as well, because my job has been really putting a lot of pressure on me lately, and I've been edging closer and closer to melting down at work.

To be fair though, the lady I was dealing with was being kind of rude. That said, I should have just walked away before anything happened.

Being misunderstood, again. And losing a friend, again. A cyclic behavior of mine

Too many changes of the plans I made for today.

Feeling sad and unhelpful today. Time for a walk.

Jimmy Johns did not put hot peppers on my sandwich. Weird how little stuff like that makes me upset and now I feel like it has set the tone for the rest of the day.

Nothing

So i am walking the dog, just got to the gennel (that's a narrow pedestrian alley) by the allotments, about 10 minutes from home when the heavens opened. Not seen anything like it for years, monsoon weather. It got that bad i had to take my paper money and mobile phone out of my pocket and put them in a poo bag to stop them getting too wet to function. Carried on with the walk though, no point walking back i would have got soaked anyway/ at least i can get changed and dried when i get home, i think the dog is still wet through all these hours later.

I am NO LONGER on good terms with my parents, ANYMORE.

My back hurts. and my computer is not working right.