I remember I used to wish for bad things to happen, which is kind of scary. One example was during the SARS epidemic, I wished that more and more people get infected with the disease because I have an obssession with numbers. I also wished there were more blackouts that happened like the huge one that occurred in Eastern Canada/USA. Its kind of creepy how I rarely feel sad about things that happen around the world and its creepy that on the inside, I seem like a horrible person.