I feel more like myself when I start the day off with tea. Dean asked on the phone, "What if you cry?" I answered, "I don't care, anymore." Dean said, "Schultz."
Joined: 4 May 2020 Age: 23 Gender: Male Posts: 9,247
18 Sep 2022, 7:35 pm
I have anxiety about tomorrow. We got in trouble because some of my coworkers aren't putting washers on garments that need mending. I only don't put washers on things that my aunt + one of my coworkers told me not to, because no one can do anything to them, or anything that I know doesn't need attention after learning to grade some of the clothes. If they make me put washers on everything that isn't perfect my productivity % will go way down. I'm only finally at 90% after figuring out what I don't need to waste time on.
I have anxiety about tomorrow. We got in trouble because some of my coworkers aren't putting washers on garments that need mending. I only don't put washers on things that my aunt + one of my coworkers told me not to, because no one can do anything to them, or anything that I know doesn't need attention after learning to grade some of the clothes. If they make me put washers on everything that isn't perfect my productivity % will go way down. I'm only finally at 90% after figuring out what I don't need to waste time on.
This song is a good description of how my summer unfolded. Things were starting out all nice and groovy. I was dressed in green, the colour of nature. I was wearing my green pea-head bandanna. I was taking a self-esteem workshop and talking to a therapist. I had it in my mind that I was going to come out of this summer as a groovy person. I was playing around with art, avatars and clothing and expanding my musical horizons. Midway through August, I was digging up things I haven't worn for 4 years. I dug up German helmets and hats that looked like them, Germany T-shirts, an old favourite blanket of mine. Each time I dug something up, I wore it. The last special thing that caught my eye, I found at the flea market. It looked like a crochet straw German helmet. I had a dead hippie spirit on my hands. Than I ended up with a permeant avatar forever. I asked myself why all that happened. That's when I realized that the self-esteem workshops and one on one therapy worked. I now have the self-esteem to be myself. I wasn't going to care about what young people and the very old thought anymore or about the scam artist who took $283 from me in 2007.
Joined: 10 May 2022 Age: 64 Gender: Male Posts: 13,233 Location: UK
19 Sep 2022, 5:52 am
All the TV channels are swamped with Queen stuff, so I'm working in the garden again today. Just harvested a ton of runner beans and sliced them, spouse is blanching them for the freezer.
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Joined: 10 May 2022 Age: 64 Gender: Male Posts: 13,233 Location: UK
19 Sep 2022, 7:08 am
I watched a few minutes of that until the "advert break" which was just silence, so turned off the TV again. Even Classic FM radio has no music, just Nick Knowles rabbiting on about the Queen.
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