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People never realized I had a habit of making my fingers bleed by pulling off it's nails and skins.

And I still do hand crafting. Also people don't realize I stim with repetitive procedures -- they thought I'm passionate and determined.
Nope. Actually, got bored. And I craft to think and do as kill time.

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the thomas' fire containment reached 15% on....friday, i think, where it remained there as it grew explosively until the level went DOWN to 10% on sunday...indicating no new progress

this made me nervous, especially as the voluntary and mandatory evacuation zones creeped ever closer to my home...until now, when i can see flames from my house again, for the first time since 2009.

i obsessively check online for updates and as of now the containment is at 20%...i'm hopeful

the air SEEMS cleaner, ash wasn't falling like snow this evening and it didn't smell thickly of smoke but i know that's just because the actual blaze is next door.

for f***s sake give us some precipitation. we're going to have firefighting on christmas.

It sort of bothers me that I've known my IRL best friend since before we were in kindergarten. Sure, we've went a few years without seeing each other and even now we only get to see each other once a month, but we still talk online quite a bit. And the strip mall the that has the ballet studio we met in has been shut down for years and is being sceduled to be torn down. Can somebody make time not fly so fast? I mean, seriously! I want us to be friends forever but once we're grown up I'm scared something's gonna happen and we won't be friends anymore. It happened to a friend my mom met in high school...

i hope britte and istominfan are okay.

I just woke up and feel sick like I'm going to have a panic attack. I can't stop thinking about Pa. Christmas is coming and we're supposed to be having a get-together up at the house. I was OK with it at first but the closer it gets in finding myself thinking about what happened to Pa and I feel sick to my stomach. Sometimes I still think he's alive and then remember that he isn't. I had school to keep me busy and it is over just today and I now can't stop thinking about it constantly. I'm in a constant worry unless I have something to keep me busy because I'm thinking about Ma being gone and Waldo being gone. My brother isn't contacting me much which is the same as usual. I feel alone. I keep thinking about my old friends that I had to cut off too because of how awful they treated me. I keep thinking of how it used to be and why they did what they did to me. I keep thinking about what happened with the Board and my crappy neighbors. I just want Christmas to be over. Christmas used to be my most favorite holiday - not anymore. I need to get up or I'm going to start crying.

I didn't know Ma and Pa were "gone."

I'm sorry you feel alone this Christmas.

That's the kind of job I might end up having one day.
Nice avatar. Is it Chi from Chobits?

I absolutely hate myself and can absolutely see why everyone I have contact with feels the same. Even other autistic people don't want to have anything to do with me - which is perfectly understandable, I don't even want to be around me. So, I think I'll just give it up.

^I don't feel that way about you.

Me neither. I'm sure people like you more than you think. I hope you come to see the good things about yourself.

Visiting potential places of employment that are now hiring.