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dragonsanddemons
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13 Dec 2018, 9:53 pm
So very, very many passive suicidal thoughts (wishing I would die, but not actually planning to do the deed myself) 
I'm sort of half considering hospitalization again, but I don't think that will actually help, so I probably won't do it.
13 Dec 2018, 11:11 pm
I'm sort of half considering hospitalization again, but I don't think that will actually help, so I probably won't do it.(((dragons and demons)))
13 Dec 2018, 11:19 pm
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13 Dec 2018, 11:36 pm
I'm seeing a therapist once a week and have mentioned it to him, and he doesn't seem too concerned. I've decided very firmly that I'm not going to do it as long as my parents are around because of the effect it would have on them (although if I outlive them, then if I still want to die, I can go ahead and do it) - so I'm not very concerned about the possibility of actually ending my life, for the time being at least. But thank you
And thank you for the hugs, cathylynn - sending you dragon hugs in return.
14 Dec 2018, 12:16 am
14 Dec 2018, 12:25 am
Me: Do you want to watch a film ?
GF: It's a bit late to watch a film , I just want to watch 1 episode and go to bed.
Me: O.K.
3 hours of TV later
GF: I'm tired , I'm going to bed
Now wondering if it is better to lie and hope that the lie doesn't catch up with you or tell the truth.
Why do people lie? I don't get it. I can understand lying to save your arse - No I didn't kill him your honour 
Arghh!! !! ! I swear I'm getting more autistic with age and I used to know these things. 
14 Dec 2018, 12:28 am
"I'm seeing a therapist once a week and have mentioned it to him, and he doesn't seem too concerned. I've decided very firmly that I'm not going to do it as long as my parents are around because of the effect it would have on them (although if I outlive them, then if I still want to die, I can go ahead and do it) "
You told your therapist that , and he did not send you to 5150?
At least two different counselors acted like "are you thinking about hurting yourself?". When i stupidly told them I was"depressed"
It was like, the correct answer to "how are you doing?", Is "perfect"
All other answers are wrong, and the punishment for a wrong answer, is 5150
Some counselors act so dramatic
They act like, "hurting people," is 5150
And "helping people" justifies a Purple Heart Award and Eagle Scout
All impacts are "helping" , neither, or "hurting""
There is not much drama involved
That is, by far, the biggest reason, why I am reluctant to get a counselor
5150
14 Dec 2018, 2:58 am
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14 Dec 2018, 9:25 am
You told your therapist that , and he did not send you to 5150?
At least two different counselors acted like "are you thinking about hurting yourself?". When i stupidly told them I was"depressed"
It was like, the correct answer to "how are you doing?", Is "perfect"
All other answers are wrong, and the punishment for a wrong answer, is 5150
Some counselors act so dramatic
They act like, "hurting people," is 5150
And "helping people" justifies a Purple Heart Award and Eagle Scout
All impacts are "helping" , neither, or "hurting""
There is not much drama involved
That is, by far, the biggest reason, why I am reluctant to get a counselor
5150
Yes, I told my therapist, and he's also been trying to work with me on my self-harm instead of just sending me off to the hospital or something. I know I got really lucky, because some will do that (or so I've heard, at least, and I was quite worried about that the first time I mentioned any of this to him). I've been seeing him for several years now, and he specializes in helping people with autism and other neurological disorders. By now, I trust him not to even suggest that I go to the hospital unless I really need to.
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