Long history of alcoholism in my family,so it's genetic for me(also,think it is connected with our diabetes,depression and some learning disabilities)I frequently drank to black out and brown out......it was my intention.I hated being inside myself,I have "snap-shots" in my head of being some where or meeting someone and not knowing how I got there....lots of storys from people I drank with about what I had done the night before.It was probably also a factor that I rarely threw-up or passed out inspite of how much I drank.People would be vomitting or passing out all around me and I would just keep drinking.I quit about 17 years ago and miss being able to be social(a little) but other wise it was worth that small sacrifice.
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